TURMOIL
We never enjoy turmoil in our lives. And, we never expect to find it in the yoga world -- after all, aren't we supposed to be calm, loving, go-with-the-flow types of people?
Worse yet, in this merry band called Anusara®, who would ever think that turmoil, personal battles, egos, etc., would ever DARE to raise their ugly heads? But, they do -- even in our small kula of Salt Lake City.
I won't go into detail. Suffice it to say, it will be a learning experience for all. For me, it creates a sadness; a sense of loss. At the same time, it is important to keep moving forward. The challenge will be to stay connected to all the parties involved in this rift, recognizing that each is an important part of my life -- a part that I'm not willing to let go of, but must recognize and accept that the dynamics of each relationship will change.
I also have many great things to focus on - my teaching, my continued journey, my students, my relationships within the extended kula.
The reality is that we are human; even those of us who dedicate our yoga practice to Anusara® Yoga. And, as such, we are blessed with human frailties and shortcomings. Enough said.
Today is Friday -- what happens on Friday? I teach! Gentle Yoga this morning; then, I'm subbing a class this evening for my friend, Jen. Both classes are Anusara-Inspiredâ„¢. One gentle (obviously) and one more energetic. Fun!
The challenge in subbing for Jen is that she is younger, more flexible, more adept at much of the asana, not to mention a very different type of instructor than I am (tho we're both Inspired™). Don't get me wrong -- I'm not discounting my skills, just stating fact; we couldn't be more different. We started our journey into Anusara® at about the same time; in fact, Jen convinced me to attend our first teacher training with Desiree Rumbaugh. The rest is history.
What Jen and I do share is laughter. Rarely are we together that we don't find something to laugh about -- to the point of being 'teenager silly'. We have fun, as friends do.
Her students will have to step back a bit, embrace their 'beginner mind', and - perhaps - take a tidbit or two away from my teaching. Things we all must do when we encounter a different teacher standing in for one of our favorites.
Now, what do I teach these students? (Note to self: read previous post -- I may already know the answer.)
Enjoy your Friday,
Worse yet, in this merry band called Anusara®, who would ever think that turmoil, personal battles, egos, etc., would ever DARE to raise their ugly heads? But, they do -- even in our small kula of Salt Lake City.
I won't go into detail. Suffice it to say, it will be a learning experience for all. For me, it creates a sadness; a sense of loss. At the same time, it is important to keep moving forward. The challenge will be to stay connected to all the parties involved in this rift, recognizing that each is an important part of my life -- a part that I'm not willing to let go of, but must recognize and accept that the dynamics of each relationship will change.
I also have many great things to focus on - my teaching, my continued journey, my students, my relationships within the extended kula.
The reality is that we are human; even those of us who dedicate our yoga practice to Anusara® Yoga. And, as such, we are blessed with human frailties and shortcomings. Enough said.
Today is Friday -- what happens on Friday? I teach! Gentle Yoga this morning; then, I'm subbing a class this evening for my friend, Jen. Both classes are Anusara-Inspiredâ„¢. One gentle (obviously) and one more energetic. Fun!
The challenge in subbing for Jen is that she is younger, more flexible, more adept at much of the asana, not to mention a very different type of instructor than I am (tho we're both Inspired™). Don't get me wrong -- I'm not discounting my skills, just stating fact; we couldn't be more different. We started our journey into Anusara® at about the same time; in fact, Jen convinced me to attend our first teacher training with Desiree Rumbaugh. The rest is history.
What Jen and I do share is laughter. Rarely are we together that we don't find something to laugh about -- to the point of being 'teenager silly'. We have fun, as friends do.
Her students will have to step back a bit, embrace their 'beginner mind', and - perhaps - take a tidbit or two away from my teaching. Things we all must do when we encounter a different teacher standing in for one of our favorites.
Now, what do I teach these students? (Note to self: read previous post -- I may already know the answer.)
Enjoy your Friday,
YOU MAY ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER . . .
I was poking around on the internet over the weekend and, out of curiosity for dates, I logged onto Donna Farhi's website to check when she will be in Salt Lake City.
Donna, who lives in New Zealand, is a workshop/training presenter who has practiced yoga for 30 years and authored four books (for more info, go to http://www.donnafarhi.co.nz/donna/). The website is fun because it gives you a glimpse of life in New Zealand, Donna's love for horses, and a sample of her writing skill (check out the section titled "Donna's Insight").
Three years ago, I attended a training here in Salt Lake conducted by Donna. She is a very skilled practitioner and teacher, and it was - for me - one of the earlier trainings I've attended. Because it was NOT Anusara®, I found myself in a group of new people, different dynamics, out of my 'comfort zone'. Note: I keep doing that 'comfort zone' thing to myself, don't I?
A vivid memory from that training is the method Donna uses with regards to questions. I've inserted a poem that describes it perfectly:
I beg you . . . . to have patience with
everything unresolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves
as if they were locked rooms or books
written in a foreign language. Don’t search
for the answers, which could not be given you
now, because you would not be able
to live them. And the point is, to live
everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps
then, some day far in the future, you will gradually
without ever knowing it,
live your way into the answers.
– Rilke
"May you, as the
poet Rilke suggests, gradually live
your way into the answers." - Donna Farhi
In her 'insights', Donna devotes one article to specifically that -- her theory behind the way she handles questions. How does she do it? She basically ignores most questions; sometimes prefacing the silence with, 'you know the answer'.
For us, as Americans(?), that is a bit unsettling -- to be told "No, I won't answer; you probably already know the answer." We paid the money, we want the answer!
Yet, reflect on our Anusara® trainings. Doesn't John (or our other Anusara® teachers) use comparison frequently to get us to do just that -- figure it out ourselves? His tone may be a bit less brusque, but it is essentially the same technique.
I have long taught students that, in the face of a minor pain/discomfort in a pose, they should go back through the steps that got them there. Compare those steps with the Universal Principles of Alignment and make adjustments (even experiment a bit) to see what pulls them out of that discomfort. After all, I won't always be by their side to diagnose and/or solve their yoga dilemmas.
Glitch in blogging -- first draft, thankfully, was saved but only partially. Why did that happen? Maybe I know the answer.
More to think about,
Donna, who lives in New Zealand, is a workshop/training presenter who has practiced yoga for 30 years and authored four books (for more info, go to http://www.donnafarhi.co.nz/donna/). The website is fun because it gives you a glimpse of life in New Zealand, Donna's love for horses, and a sample of her writing skill (check out the section titled "Donna's Insight").
Three years ago, I attended a training here in Salt Lake conducted by Donna. She is a very skilled practitioner and teacher, and it was - for me - one of the earlier trainings I've attended. Because it was NOT Anusara®, I found myself in a group of new people, different dynamics, out of my 'comfort zone'. Note: I keep doing that 'comfort zone' thing to myself, don't I?
A vivid memory from that training is the method Donna uses with regards to questions. I've inserted a poem that describes it perfectly:
I beg you . . . . to have patience with
everything unresolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves
as if they were locked rooms or books
written in a foreign language. Don’t search
for the answers, which could not be given you
now, because you would not be able
to live them. And the point is, to live
everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps
then, some day far in the future, you will gradually
without ever knowing it,
live your way into the answers.
– Rilke
"May you, as the
poet Rilke suggests, gradually live
your way into the answers." - Donna Farhi
In her 'insights', Donna devotes one article to specifically that -- her theory behind the way she handles questions. How does she do it? She basically ignores most questions; sometimes prefacing the silence with, 'you know the answer'.
For us, as Americans(?), that is a bit unsettling -- to be told "No, I won't answer; you probably already know the answer." We paid the money, we want the answer!
Yet, reflect on our Anusara® trainings. Doesn't John (or our other Anusara® teachers) use comparison frequently to get us to do just that -- figure it out ourselves? His tone may be a bit less brusque, but it is essentially the same technique.
I have long taught students that, in the face of a minor pain/discomfort in a pose, they should go back through the steps that got them there. Compare those steps with the Universal Principles of Alignment and make adjustments (even experiment a bit) to see what pulls them out of that discomfort. After all, I won't always be by their side to diagnose and/or solve their yoga dilemmas.
Glitch in blogging -- first draft, thankfully, was saved but only partially. Why did that happen? Maybe I know the answer.
More to think about,
GO BACK TO THE B0OK
This morning I'm up early to prepare for a 9 am class. I started last night, feeling little inspiration.
As I looked around our family room, the first book I spotted was the Anusara Teacher Training Manual (conveniently opened to possible 'heart quality' ideas). Since I was feeling less-than-inspired, I decided to re-read some of the manual. Started last night, made it through 3 sections and set it aside to resume in the morning.
This morning, up and reading. Finding lots of material that I had forgotten, overlooked in previous readings, or maybe just hadn't paid attention to (or heard).
In our curriculum, there is so much reading that - if we have done one (or two or three or four) teacher trainings, the manual may sit unopened after that first flurry of teacher training exuberance. At least, that's been my history. I do open it occasionally to check possible heart qualities, look at the lists of poses for the ones I have overlooked teaching, etc.
This time, I opened it and read each line of chapter 9 (course curriculum) through to the Syllabus of poses -- highlighting important points. Lots of gems in there that - unfortunately for me - have gotten sidelined by other information.
As John says -- stick to the basics; keep it simple. The manual helps us do just that; succinctly telling us how, what and why to teach in order to engage our students.
One line that jumped off the page for me this morning: "It is yoga throughout every phase of the pose, not just in the final form." Why? Because I've been trying to teach this, but have yet to come up with such a simple way to say it. Now I have it! All because I went 'back to the book'.
Hope you have a great weekend,
As I looked around our family room, the first book I spotted was the Anusara Teacher Training Manual (conveniently opened to possible 'heart quality' ideas). Since I was feeling less-than-inspired, I decided to re-read some of the manual. Started last night, made it through 3 sections and set it aside to resume in the morning.
This morning, up and reading. Finding lots of material that I had forgotten, overlooked in previous readings, or maybe just hadn't paid attention to (or heard).
In our curriculum, there is so much reading that - if we have done one (or two or three or four) teacher trainings, the manual may sit unopened after that first flurry of teacher training exuberance. At least, that's been my history. I do open it occasionally to check possible heart qualities, look at the lists of poses for the ones I have overlooked teaching, etc.
This time, I opened it and read each line of chapter 9 (course curriculum) through to the Syllabus of poses -- highlighting important points. Lots of gems in there that - unfortunately for me - have gotten sidelined by other information.
As John says -- stick to the basics; keep it simple. The manual helps us do just that; succinctly telling us how, what and why to teach in order to engage our students.
One line that jumped off the page for me this morning: "It is yoga throughout every phase of the pose, not just in the final form." Why? Because I've been trying to teach this, but have yet to come up with such a simple way to say it. Now I have it! All because I went 'back to the book'.
Hope you have a great weekend,
TRANSITIONS
I attended Wayne's class yesterday morning -- his theme and our practice revolved around our transitions, staying steady and strong as we move from one pose to the next.
Naturally - as good yoga teachers do - I used a similar thought process for my YogaHour class. I did use a different sequence and there was some original thought to my class. But, in all honesty, it does help me to attend a class, listen to the phrasing being used and the instructions, incorporate it into my own practice; and then -- maybe use some of it in one of my subsequent classes.
I attended a class at my studio a couple weeks ago. Response of fellow students in the class: 'what is a yoga teacher doing in class?'. Kind of caught me off guard. Either we yoga teachers disguise our professions very well, or these students never go to the classes with teachers in attendance, or - worse - few of us yoga teachers actually attend public classes.
The last option does happen - more often than we would care to admit. We get so caught up in teaching, practicing on our own, studying, attending workshops (and, some of us have full-time jobs to attend to), that we forget about public classes. A gold mine we can use to our own advantage, when needed.
As I work towards Certification, it is part of my curriculum to attend a certain number of public classes with a Certified Anusara® Instructor. So, best I not forget those public classes.
Plus, as I said before, it's a goldmine of good information, teaching ideas, theming ideas, etc., to be had. And, since most yoga instructors know and accept that it will happen, I don't need to feel guilty when I 'borrow' something from them.
Naturally - as good yoga teachers do - I used a similar thought process for my YogaHour class. I did use a different sequence and there was some original thought to my class. But, in all honesty, it does help me to attend a class, listen to the phrasing being used and the instructions, incorporate it into my own practice; and then -- maybe use some of it in one of my subsequent classes.
I attended a class at my studio a couple weeks ago. Response of fellow students in the class: 'what is a yoga teacher doing in class?'. Kind of caught me off guard. Either we yoga teachers disguise our professions very well, or these students never go to the classes with teachers in attendance, or - worse - few of us yoga teachers actually attend public classes.
The last option does happen - more often than we would care to admit. We get so caught up in teaching, practicing on our own, studying, attending workshops (and, some of us have full-time jobs to attend to), that we forget about public classes. A gold mine we can use to our own advantage, when needed.
As I work towards Certification, it is part of my curriculum to attend a certain number of public classes with a Certified Anusara® Instructor. So, best I not forget those public classes.
Plus, as I said before, it's a goldmine of good information, teaching ideas, theming ideas, etc., to be had. And, since most yoga instructors know and accept that it will happen, I don't need to feel guilty when I 'borrow' something from them.
WRITING
I have always enjoyed writing, but never explored it too much. As is my nature, I probably thought I had little to offer the 'reading' world; so, why bother.
This past year, I've ventured beyond typing copious notes from workshops and trainings, to writing this blog, to writing letters (and a vacation journal) for my grandsons, and - now - to setting some of my experiences down in more detail. I've submitted one article to Anusara's® website and it now appears in Kula News.
The title is "Yoga for Everyone" and describes my experience teaching a volunteer yoga class at the SLC Jail. I have shared teaching responsibilities for this class for 5 years (!!!). I won't go into all the details (if you're interested, you can check out the article on the website). Suffice it to say, it is another example of 'Leslie stepping out of her comfort zone.'.
As I was excitedly re-reading my submission last night, I took a few extra minutes to read BJ Galvan's account of her adventures in South America. Wow! BJ is a wonderful writer and her article is full of great descriptive phrases, and tons of shri -- photos, too!
Back to my writing -- how do I get 'shri' into clanging metal doors, serious & not-to-be-fooled-with officers, potential uncomfortable teaching situations? Well, maybe my next article I'll do better at that aspect.
We can't all be in shri-filled situations, can we? Or, maybe we have to look for the shri in the fact that students in the jail are there for the same reasons as the students in Peru -- to experience yoga, to know more about themselves, and to create beauty in their lives (tho my students probably wouldn't say it that way).
For me, the shri was in just writing the article, editing and proofing it, submitting it, and waiting (I submitted it about the time the website was undergoing a big re-vamping). It's a bit of me out there for people to read, to learn more about me and that big population of non-mainstream type student waiting (unknowlingly?) for yoga.
I taught my Gentle Yoga class yesterday -- wide spectrum of challenging students. Samples: post back surgery, severe balance issues, hip replacement, newer to yoga and a bit stiff. I love teaching this group; they are so appreciative, so happy to be moving, and represent the kula at its best.
Today, I teach YogaHour at 4 pm -- one hour, $4 -- not a bad deal for students. For me, I feel more free when teaching this group. Not sure why; maybe because it is a less-formal format. We work hard, but we also laugh; it's fun for me and them.
If you have completed your Immersions & a Level I Teacher Training, check out Christina Sell's next offering -- an on-line mentoring group to help you through next steps. Videos, teaching, applications, etc., etc., etc. If you hope to apply for Certification, and don't have a mentor yet to work with you until you apply, this is a good 'next step'.
Enjoy your Thursday,
This past year, I've ventured beyond typing copious notes from workshops and trainings, to writing this blog, to writing letters (and a vacation journal) for my grandsons, and - now - to setting some of my experiences down in more detail. I've submitted one article to Anusara's® website and it now appears in Kula News.
The title is "Yoga for Everyone" and describes my experience teaching a volunteer yoga class at the SLC Jail. I have shared teaching responsibilities for this class for 5 years (!!!). I won't go into all the details (if you're interested, you can check out the article on the website). Suffice it to say, it is another example of 'Leslie stepping out of her comfort zone.'.
As I was excitedly re-reading my submission last night, I took a few extra minutes to read BJ Galvan's account of her adventures in South America. Wow! BJ is a wonderful writer and her article is full of great descriptive phrases, and tons of shri -- photos, too!
Back to my writing -- how do I get 'shri' into clanging metal doors, serious & not-to-be-fooled-with officers, potential uncomfortable teaching situations? Well, maybe my next article I'll do better at that aspect.
We can't all be in shri-filled situations, can we? Or, maybe we have to look for the shri in the fact that students in the jail are there for the same reasons as the students in Peru -- to experience yoga, to know more about themselves, and to create beauty in their lives (tho my students probably wouldn't say it that way).
For me, the shri was in just writing the article, editing and proofing it, submitting it, and waiting (I submitted it about the time the website was undergoing a big re-vamping). It's a bit of me out there for people to read, to learn more about me and that big population of non-mainstream type student waiting (unknowlingly?) for yoga.
I taught my Gentle Yoga class yesterday -- wide spectrum of challenging students. Samples: post back surgery, severe balance issues, hip replacement, newer to yoga and a bit stiff. I love teaching this group; they are so appreciative, so happy to be moving, and represent the kula at its best.
Today, I teach YogaHour at 4 pm -- one hour, $4 -- not a bad deal for students. For me, I feel more free when teaching this group. Not sure why; maybe because it is a less-formal format. We work hard, but we also laugh; it's fun for me and them.
If you have completed your Immersions & a Level I Teacher Training, check out Christina Sell's next offering -- an on-line mentoring group to help you through next steps. Videos, teaching, applications, etc., etc., etc. If you hope to apply for Certification, and don't have a mentor yet to work with you until you apply, this is a good 'next step'.
Enjoy your Thursday,
THE KULA
One of the many things I love about Anusara® yoga is the kula -- the community.
There are three things that define and set Anusara® apart from other yoga styles (we discussed this at length with John in Tucson, March 2009):
Additionally, the blog I referenced a day or so ago (Dakota Yogi), is written by a yoga teacher I have never met. Yet, the kula of Anusara® Yoga has brought us together via Facebook and our blogs. Our mutual love of Anusara® makes it easy to be friends and to communicate with one another without ever meeting (though, I hope to meet Doc, in person, someday soon).
For me, the Anusara® method gives me what most of us desire:
There are three things that define and set Anusara® apart from other yoga styles (we discussed this at length with John in Tucson, March 2009):
- Anusara® yoga instructors look for the good in all people and things. That's why, when I approach a student, hopefully I preface any recommendations with the positive I am seeing. We hear this over and over in our trainings and workshops. How many of you like to have someone approach you with a "Lift your left leg" command? I'd much rather hear "Leslie, your right leg looks straight and strong; now engage and lift your left leg to fully support the pose." I'll do almost anything for an instructor who sees and acknowledges my positive first.
- There is a method / plan in place for each class. Each class is planned in advance with a theme/message, and the poses are sequenced to take the class to an apex (peak) pose. So, if I want a class to do urdhva dhanurasana (wheel or full backbend) as the apex pose, I will sequence poses leading to it that will prepare back, shoulders, legs for this apex. Similar planning is used to wind down from the apex. This happens for each class.
- We have a kula (community) to support and enrich our teaching. I know that other styles of yoga also would claim this; and, I can't dispute that. I do know that I feel supported by everyone, from John Friend to the person I meet for the first time at an Anusara® workshop or training who I trust to help me into handstand. We all feel part of something bigger than ourselves that can serve to make us better yoga students and teachers.
Additionally, the blog I referenced a day or so ago (Dakota Yogi), is written by a yoga teacher I have never met. Yet, the kula of Anusara® Yoga has brought us together via Facebook and our blogs. Our mutual love of Anusara® makes it easy to be friends and to communicate with one another without ever meeting (though, I hope to meet Doc, in person, someday soon).
For me, the Anusara® method gives me what most of us desire:
- Recognition (what's good about me, then what can we do to improve it)
- A plan (we all want to know where we're headed, and not go there blindly)
- Friendship and camaraderie along the way (the best)
Here's to the Kula,
TOUGH WEEKEND
Well, it's been one of the least enjoyable weekends I've spent with my parents. Lots of discussion about the future, lots of not-so-happy reactions, and lots of silence (my mother has suddently lost her hearing --- ).
My parents still feel they are able to live independently, with help coming in almost daily in the form of housekeeper, bookkeeper, bath-aide. I think my father would gladly move to an apartment in an assisted living facility, but my mother is very attached to her 'things' and this house (which - interestingly - she hated when they bought). Both are struggling with challenges - dad, movement & diabetes; mom, memory & anxiety.
So, for now, we'll give it a bit more time. And, I'll keep remembering Sundari's words of wisdom: 'this, too, is your yoga'.
While I've been away, I've kept track of stuff via internet (getting to love Facebook). I also learned this morning that Doc Savage (South Dakota) has started a blog, www.centipedes-world.blogspot.com. Gave it a read -- good one, and made a comment. I know that I love to receive comments and it took about a month before I got one. You wonder who could be out there reading all this stuff, and - then - why are you bothering to write it. Turns out you are writing it for yourself (really, not kidding); and that's a good thing.
I return to SLC tomorrow and back to my life. Got a husband, 2 houses, 2 dogs, 2 cats, & 2 birds, all calling my name. (It's tough to be so popular!)
I'm going to keep moving in my teaching and my practice. I worry that if I stop and focus on something I can't change right now (my parents), I may not get started again. So, I've added a class in September. Going to teach a 3-class series called Basics, with a focus on Anusara® Yoga. So, someone new to yoga can attend, as well as someone who wants to explore Anusara® more - the language, the philosophy, etc. This will challenge me, as well. If you're in SLC, join me and check it out! Info is on my website, www.yogautah.com.
Enjoy your week,
My parents still feel they are able to live independently, with help coming in almost daily in the form of housekeeper, bookkeeper, bath-aide. I think my father would gladly move to an apartment in an assisted living facility, but my mother is very attached to her 'things' and this house (which - interestingly - she hated when they bought). Both are struggling with challenges - dad, movement & diabetes; mom, memory & anxiety.
So, for now, we'll give it a bit more time. And, I'll keep remembering Sundari's words of wisdom: 'this, too, is your yoga'.
While I've been away, I've kept track of stuff via internet (getting to love Facebook). I also learned this morning that Doc Savage (South Dakota) has started a blog, www.centipedes-world.blogspot.com. Gave it a read -- good one, and made a comment. I know that I love to receive comments and it took about a month before I got one. You wonder who could be out there reading all this stuff, and - then - why are you bothering to write it. Turns out you are writing it for yourself (really, not kidding); and that's a good thing.
I return to SLC tomorrow and back to my life. Got a husband, 2 houses, 2 dogs, 2 cats, & 2 birds, all calling my name. (It's tough to be so popular!)
I'm going to keep moving in my teaching and my practice. I worry that if I stop and focus on something I can't change right now (my parents), I may not get started again. So, I've added a class in September. Going to teach a 3-class series called Basics, with a focus on Anusara® Yoga. So, someone new to yoga can attend, as well as someone who wants to explore Anusara® more - the language, the philosophy, etc. This will challenge me, as well. If you're in SLC, join me and check it out! Info is on my website, www.yogautah.com.
Enjoy your week,
BE BRAVE, JUST HIT THAT 'SEND' BUTTON
Well, the good news is that John Friend has started a blog. Many of you know that and are probably reading it. For some of you, this may be news. The other good news is that he's only made 3 entries, so you can get in on the ground floor of reading and following it.
To find the blog, go to the Anusara® website, and look at the 'Community' menu. Click on 'John's Blog'.
Yesterday's entry was about offering and accepting feedback. The message explained the mechanics of feedback and was directed towards the appropriate manner in which to accept feedback. (I was pleased to have him write that not all feedback is accurate or written in stone; but we do need to listen to it, absorb it, and contemplate it anyway. There is probably a part of even an inaccurate statement that we can learn from.)
So, I offered a comment to that blog entry. Sundari, my mentor, used a tool -- write down 5 positives from a feedback session and 5 areas to be improved. This - as I review it to make sure I'm doing (or trying to do) what she suggested - is valuable to remind me of what needs to happen AND what I am doing well. My tendency would be to focus only on the 'needing improvement' areas and forget about the positive.
As I typed the comment, I felt a bit nervous. I read, adjusted, re-read, adjusted again, re-read, and read again.
Why was I nervous? That age-old thought that what I have to say or ask may be viewed as 'not so intelligent' or 'doesn't she know that already'.
Not so. Several times I've asked questions and people thank me for asking. We're all a bit fearful of putting ourselves out there, of exposing our bare underbellies. Mine is just a bit more calloused than others, and I don't worry about it so much anymore. I need to know the stuff, or to comment on it, and therefore I will usually go for it.
Except when it's John Friend's blog entry I'm commenting on -- for that, the old nervous, self-conscious Leslie returned. But, in the end, I HIT that 'send' button.
Enjoy your day and your weekend. Off to Spokane (see previous post for details).
To find the blog, go to the Anusara® website, and look at the 'Community' menu. Click on 'John's Blog'.
Yesterday's entry was about offering and accepting feedback. The message explained the mechanics of feedback and was directed towards the appropriate manner in which to accept feedback. (I was pleased to have him write that not all feedback is accurate or written in stone; but we do need to listen to it, absorb it, and contemplate it anyway. There is probably a part of even an inaccurate statement that we can learn from.)
So, I offered a comment to that blog entry. Sundari, my mentor, used a tool -- write down 5 positives from a feedback session and 5 areas to be improved. This - as I review it to make sure I'm doing (or trying to do) what she suggested - is valuable to remind me of what needs to happen AND what I am doing well. My tendency would be to focus only on the 'needing improvement' areas and forget about the positive.
As I typed the comment, I felt a bit nervous. I read, adjusted, re-read, adjusted again, re-read, and read again.
Why was I nervous? That age-old thought that what I have to say or ask may be viewed as 'not so intelligent' or 'doesn't she know that already'.
Not so. Several times I've asked questions and people thank me for asking. We're all a bit fearful of putting ourselves out there, of exposing our bare underbellies. Mine is just a bit more calloused than others, and I don't worry about it so much anymore. I need to know the stuff, or to comment on it, and therefore I will usually go for it.
Except when it's John Friend's blog entry I'm commenting on -- for that, the old nervous, self-conscious Leslie returned. But, in the end, I HIT that 'send' button.
Enjoy your day and your weekend. Off to Spokane (see previous post for details).
SETTLING BACK IN
I've settled back into a sort-of routine in the last few days -- being back to real life after vacation. Now, it's time to pack again. Going to visit my parents for a long weekend in Spokane.
I'm packing my equanimity for that trip. Aging parents and the associated dynamics will require a big dose of it. FYI, my parents are in their mid-80's. They are still in their home, with help coming in periodically (housekeeper, bookkeeper, bath-aide, Fire Department - when my Dad takes a tumble, plus a cousin whose family is very attentive).
Still, I worry. I have my ideas of what would be best for them; but it doesn't fit their wishes right now. So - wait, worry, watch.
I've been using the word equanimity a lot this week -- as a theme in classes, as a reminder to not overreact. I will apply the word a lot this coming weekend -- try to stay calm, not dramatize, take time to look at the bigger picture.
To think that 24 months ago, this powerful word was a bit foreign to me! I would read it in Gurumayi's writings, think about it, decide to look it up in the dictionary later, then forget. It was vaguely in my mind that it meant 'equal', but I was never confident enough in my knowledge to add it to my vocabulary. (equanimity = calm temperament, evenness of temper even under stress)
Today, it's in my mind and my vocabulary constantly. Such a good word!
Well, another blog dedicated to rambling on about a word (last entry is was 'props').
P.S. I've been re-reading the books I have with compilations of Gurumayi's talks. In those talks, she always is referencing Baba Muktananda (her teacher). I finally purchased one of his books (a compilations of selected essays), started reading it last night. Lots to think about.
Enjoy your day,
I'm packing my equanimity for that trip. Aging parents and the associated dynamics will require a big dose of it. FYI, my parents are in their mid-80's. They are still in their home, with help coming in periodically (housekeeper, bookkeeper, bath-aide, Fire Department - when my Dad takes a tumble, plus a cousin whose family is very attentive).
Still, I worry. I have my ideas of what would be best for them; but it doesn't fit their wishes right now. So - wait, worry, watch.
I've been using the word equanimity a lot this week -- as a theme in classes, as a reminder to not overreact. I will apply the word a lot this coming weekend -- try to stay calm, not dramatize, take time to look at the bigger picture.
To think that 24 months ago, this powerful word was a bit foreign to me! I would read it in Gurumayi's writings, think about it, decide to look it up in the dictionary later, then forget. It was vaguely in my mind that it meant 'equal', but I was never confident enough in my knowledge to add it to my vocabulary. (equanimity = calm temperament, evenness of temper even under stress)
Today, it's in my mind and my vocabulary constantly. Such a good word!
Well, another blog dedicated to rambling on about a word (last entry is was 'props').
P.S. I've been re-reading the books I have with compilations of Gurumayi's talks. In those talks, she always is referencing Baba Muktananda (her teacher). I finally purchased one of his books (a compilations of selected essays), started reading it last night. Lots to think about.
Enjoy your day,
BACK TO REALITY (?)
I returned yesterday from five (yes, 5) nights in Driggs, that included a short hiatus from blog writing and minimal yoga business.
The time away included LOTS of quality time, however, with my son, daughter-in-law, and grandsons - Jack & Brady. We got to experience several aspects of spending vacations with family -- the fun of being together, the stress of illness (a 24-hr bug Jack got on day 3), irritable individual moments (me) -- but, all-in-all, an experience I wouldn't trade for anything.
The time away included LOTS of quality time, however, with my son, daughter-in-law, and grandsons - Jack & Brady. We got to experience several aspects of spending vacations with family -- the fun of being together, the stress of illness (a 24-hr bug Jack got on day 3), irritable individual moments (me) -- but, all-in-all, an experience I wouldn't trade for anything.
Highlights for me: Jack walking out in the morning to greet the day with "it's a beautiful day". Brady taking his (almost) first step into my arms. Derek and I taking one day to go fishing together. Watching Jess work efficiently and effectively as the Mother, Wife, Protector, Always-On-The-Alert person in this group of four. Howard and I were able to relax and laugh, and just enjoy being with family. Great stuff!
So, it's back to SLC for me; San Diego for Derek & family; and Howard is on the road -- reality, I guess.
There were a series of missteps at my studio in my absence -- a slight glitch in a once-monthly class (I'll find out more later this morning); a sub forgetting to teach one of my classes; a private session of mine cancelling at the last minute (causing one early-rising sub a bit of frustration).
It will be interesting(?) to go to the studio this afternoon and see what state it's in after five days away.
One thing I remember from working with John so much is the importance of creating a sacred space in which to practice and teach. So, when I see props dissheveled and out of place, it doesn't fit with that 'sacred' space type of thinking I've embraced.
Unfortunately, it doesn't bother everyone and not all of the instructors who teach at the studio have received that lesson from their teachers. So, props in disarray is not a problem for them. I also need to remember that many of them are racing from studio to studio or from studio to job, and don't have time to stop and straighten up the props. The next instructor bears the brunt and often doesn't have time before his/her students arrive to get things back in shape.
I've just spent 3 minutes wondering why, after 5 days, all I'm thinking about at this moment is the PROPS???
One of the interesting parts of blog-writing is just letting the fingers start to translate thought to computer screen. Never quite sure what will come out; and then it's a process of weaving it back into some bigger picture. How can I weave props into anything?
Perhaps it's part of the equanimity I must hold forth as I step back into this reality. Staying calm, realizing it's not everyone's priority (though, it should be), and accepting it. This equanimity will help with handling whatever fallout I receive from late-arriving instructors (or instructors who don't arrive at all), to students cancelling at the last minute. Even to my continuing saga of Dept. of Workforce relations. Ah, there -- I wove it (woved?, weaved?).
Last night, I read John's first two entries of his new blog -- his history and knowledge make my writing look a bit trite. Oh, well, a dose of equanimity will help with that also.
Welcome back & have a beautiful day,
SECRETLY SMILING
We met our son and his family at the airport yesterday. I was surprised at the level of excitement I felt as their arrival approached. I'm always happy to see them, but they've never come (as a foursome) to our turf; we've always gone there.
So, I left early for the airport and waited anxiously in the park&wait lot. Then drove up to the short-term parking, also a few minutes earlier than needed (but, with the valid excuse that I wanted to use the restroom before their arrival). Just as I walked in, Derek called from the plane which was sitting on the tarmac waiting for a gate (Jack, the almost 3-yr-old) can be heard in the background telling me he is on the plane.) So, Howard and I wait.
20 (or 30) minutes later, the family can be seen coming towards us. It's important to note, that part of my secret wish was that, upon seeing me, Jack would run straight to me and into my arms.
What happened?
Exactly that! There was a slight hesitation, since both Howard and I were there -- like 'who should I go to'; lucky for me, he decided to come my way first. Wow! What fun these grandkids are! Even Brady, who is approaching 1 yr., was all smiles and willing to be picked up and embraced. (Remember, because they live in California, we see these little people just once every few months, or so; making this reunion - and the associated reactions - even more remarkable.)
Oh, and lest I forget -- Jess & Derek (parents of these wonderful children - our son & daughter-in-law), were met with hugs, as well.
We visited for a short time, helped herd kids and baggage for a bit, made restroom stops, changed diapers, loaded our SUV (boy, am I glad we put the cartop carrier on!), and sent them on their way to Idaho. We (Howard and I) were exhausted -- we've traveled with one child (Derek) many years ago, but never two, and there's a whole industry out there creating things you must have. I know those 'things' make life easier, it's just a LOT to carry around (car seats, portable cribs, stroller, not to mention baggage).
I loved being greeted with so much love. I secretly smile and get goosebumps each time I think about that reunion. It was all I hoped for, but didn't dare let myself anticipate. Then - the final 'icing on the cake' -- Jack cried as they drove away, when he learned he wouldn't see us again until tonight!
Back to yoga -- today I teach my Gentle Yoga group, and then do a presentation to a large group of IRS employees.
What does the IRS want with yoga? A way to relax / de-stress. What better group for that?
The reactions will be interesting to observe. I did a similar presentation to a group of Juvenile Justice employees -- very 'mainstream' Utah. While they did everything I asked them to, I always wonder how effective it was; as in, did they use any of the techniques I taught them?
I always love an opportunity to talk about yoga and the affect it can have on our lives -- if it just sparks the curiosity of one (or a few) of these 120 folks, I'll feel very grateful.
Enjoy your day,
So, I left early for the airport and waited anxiously in the park&wait lot. Then drove up to the short-term parking, also a few minutes earlier than needed (but, with the valid excuse that I wanted to use the restroom before their arrival). Just as I walked in, Derek called from the plane which was sitting on the tarmac waiting for a gate (Jack, the almost 3-yr-old) can be heard in the background telling me he is on the plane.) So, Howard and I wait.
20 (or 30) minutes later, the family can be seen coming towards us. It's important to note, that part of my secret wish was that, upon seeing me, Jack would run straight to me and into my arms.
What happened?
Exactly that! There was a slight hesitation, since both Howard and I were there -- like 'who should I go to'; lucky for me, he decided to come my way first. Wow! What fun these grandkids are! Even Brady, who is approaching 1 yr., was all smiles and willing to be picked up and embraced. (Remember, because they live in California, we see these little people just once every few months, or so; making this reunion - and the associated reactions - even more remarkable.)
Oh, and lest I forget -- Jess & Derek (parents of these wonderful children - our son & daughter-in-law), were met with hugs, as well.
We visited for a short time, helped herd kids and baggage for a bit, made restroom stops, changed diapers, loaded our SUV (boy, am I glad we put the cartop carrier on!), and sent them on their way to Idaho. We (Howard and I) were exhausted -- we've traveled with one child (Derek) many years ago, but never two, and there's a whole industry out there creating things you must have. I know those 'things' make life easier, it's just a LOT to carry around (car seats, portable cribs, stroller, not to mention baggage).
I loved being greeted with so much love. I secretly smile and get goosebumps each time I think about that reunion. It was all I hoped for, but didn't dare let myself anticipate. Then - the final 'icing on the cake' -- Jack cried as they drove away, when he learned he wouldn't see us again until tonight!
Back to yoga -- today I teach my Gentle Yoga group, and then do a presentation to a large group of IRS employees.
What does the IRS want with yoga? A way to relax / de-stress. What better group for that?
The reactions will be interesting to observe. I did a similar presentation to a group of Juvenile Justice employees -- very 'mainstream' Utah. While they did everything I asked them to, I always wonder how effective it was; as in, did they use any of the techniques I taught them?
I always love an opportunity to talk about yoga and the affect it can have on our lives -- if it just sparks the curiosity of one (or a few) of these 120 folks, I'll feel very grateful.
Enjoy your day,
ANTICIPATION
would be the perfect word for today.
Our son and family arrive at noon today to begin their visit with us. Everyone's excited. Jack (pictured with me in my blog photo) has been asking every 5 minutes when they are leaving 'on vacation'.
A bit overshadowed by the family's arrival, is a presentation I'm making to the IRS in Ogden, Wednesday afternoon. 120 IRS people (yikes!!!) who are looking for ways to reduce stress in their stress-filled jobs. So, I have some preparation to do for that, as well!
Finally reached Anusara regarding the Santa Fe training & the associated listing on their website. Apparently, there is no information yet about schedule, so that's why the information is vague. If you're interested in attending, I guess the best thing to do is apply and watch for information.
I think this will be short -- just too much to think about, to be able to concentrate on this blog entry.
Enjoy your Tuesday,
Our son and family arrive at noon today to begin their visit with us. Everyone's excited. Jack (pictured with me in my blog photo) has been asking every 5 minutes when they are leaving 'on vacation'.
A bit overshadowed by the family's arrival, is a presentation I'm making to the IRS in Ogden, Wednesday afternoon. 120 IRS people (yikes!!!) who are looking for ways to reduce stress in their stress-filled jobs. So, I have some preparation to do for that, as well!
Finally reached Anusara regarding the Santa Fe training & the associated listing on their website. Apparently, there is no information yet about schedule, so that's why the information is vague. If you're interested in attending, I guess the best thing to do is apply and watch for information.
I think this will be short -- just too much to think about, to be able to concentrate on this blog entry.
Enjoy your Tuesday,
SWITCHIN' IT UP
I've written every other blog entry during the daylight hours; it's time to try out an evening entry. Just like we move our mat around in our classrooms, switching it up once in a while is a good thing -- keeps things interesting and different.
The Saturday a.m. private cancelled for today, so that left the 9 am class to teach. A small group; several regulars plus one new student. The new person was very body aware and fit in very well; and the regulars - as always - were happy to welcome someone new and accepted gracefully the need to slow down just a bit.
I had re-read a couple of Zhenja LaRosa's blog entries early this morning. How inspiring! She also reminded me of the important role of expansion in our yoga poses. I've been emphasizing the idea of lengthening through the torso, rather than using the arms/shoulders to create length. I have realized over the past months the importance of that length for the health and wellbeing of my neck. Zhenja writes about a similar experience, and the way she breaks it all down is amazing. Her blog is yoganerd.blogspot.com.
So, having this in my hip pocket, I taught a class emphasizing side body length. Heart quality: expansion. As we expand in our yoga poses and experience, we can translate that expansion to other parts of our lives, more fully experiencing and connecting to the world and people around us.
The new student got to experience parvritta trikonasana (not exactly a 'beginner' pose). We used the wall, pressing the back heel against it for support in this pose and using a block the first time through. Then, as they felt appropriate, they could use the block or not on the second round. The expansion we had cultivated throughout the class in the torso, supported by strong legs (and the wall), made for some nice openings.
After class, my husband and I took our annual drive up to the Park City Arts Festival. Fun to see lots of great, creative and traditional artwork in one space. Lunch, a trip to the grocery store, and Lululemon(!!!) followed. Then home.
We are looking forward to next week when our son will bring his family to Utah and then to Driggs for a short vacation. Will be fun to have them visit us for a change (aka the theme of this blog entry).
Enjoy the rest of your weekend,
The Saturday a.m. private cancelled for today, so that left the 9 am class to teach. A small group; several regulars plus one new student. The new person was very body aware and fit in very well; and the regulars - as always - were happy to welcome someone new and accepted gracefully the need to slow down just a bit.
I had re-read a couple of Zhenja LaRosa's blog entries early this morning. How inspiring! She also reminded me of the important role of expansion in our yoga poses. I've been emphasizing the idea of lengthening through the torso, rather than using the arms/shoulders to create length. I have realized over the past months the importance of that length for the health and wellbeing of my neck. Zhenja writes about a similar experience, and the way she breaks it all down is amazing. Her blog is yoganerd.blogspot.com.
So, having this in my hip pocket, I taught a class emphasizing side body length. Heart quality: expansion. As we expand in our yoga poses and experience, we can translate that expansion to other parts of our lives, more fully experiencing and connecting to the world and people around us.
The new student got to experience parvritta trikonasana (not exactly a 'beginner' pose). We used the wall, pressing the back heel against it for support in this pose and using a block the first time through. Then, as they felt appropriate, they could use the block or not on the second round. The expansion we had cultivated throughout the class in the torso, supported by strong legs (and the wall), made for some nice openings.
After class, my husband and I took our annual drive up to the Park City Arts Festival. Fun to see lots of great, creative and traditional artwork in one space. Lunch, a trip to the grocery store, and Lululemon(!!!) followed. Then home.
We are looking forward to next week when our son will bring his family to Utah and then to Driggs for a short vacation. Will be fun to have them visit us for a change (aka the theme of this blog entry).
Enjoy the rest of your weekend,
A GOOD EXPERIENCE . . .
The meeting of a good portion of yoga studio owners in the SL Valley went well (8 of perhaps 12-14 showed up). After talking about the issue(s) facing us, tasks were assigned, results will be compiled, and we'll meet again. I'm pleased everyone could come together creating a supportive, cohesive group. (This sounds like we were enemies before; not the case - it was more that we were just distant from one another. All doing similar things, but in our own little worlds.)
Gentle Yoga yesterday went well. I was able to try out some of the hip stuff I'd been thinking of. One new person, and he was able to quickly grasp the movements.
I have a 'ritual', so to speak, in the morning. Turn coffee on, turn computer on, get a cup of coffee. Then the first place I go on the internet is to Facebook. It does become addicting to see what everyone's been up to the previous 24 hrs. Lots of pictures are showing up from the Wanderlust Festival (music, yoga, etc., at Lake Tahoe) -- looks like it was fun and, maybe, an attempt to re-create some of that free hippie feeling of the 60's/70's.
Since I was living through those days as a teenager/young adult, re-visiting would be fun but not vital. Kind of like 'been there, done that'. Though, I was never a true hippie (FYI, my father was an Air Force pilot; any kind of unconventional activity would have been out of line, if you get my drift.)
Why tell you all this? Well, perusing the photos from Wanderlust led me to an album of a VERY accomplished yogini. In one of the photos, she was so beautifully 'wound up' in a pose that it was hard to tell from what angle it was shot (front/back/side?). Finally figured it out.
Looking at those kinds of photos gives me pause. Makes me wonder why I'm doing all this -- because, I'm not sure I've enough time left in this lifetime to get into that kind of pose.
I reflect on my words to a class full of people my age and a bit older -- 'why pursue challenge? because it's fun, brings awareness, gives us a greater knowledge of ourselves, makes us more confident'. I do wonder sometimes whether they are listening and thinking -- 'I've seen enough challenge and fun, in my life; I just want to stretch!'
But, here's the rub -- we all need challenge; no matter how much we've seen in our lives. It may be that I am pursuing all this, because I need a challenge (those elusive poses, all the reading, all the study & practice, and stretching emotionally & spiritually beyond long-held boundaries). And, I know that I can communicate to a group of 60+ year-olds the value of challenge in a very plausible way.
Therefore, I am needed and I will be valued for what I can offer to students who are stiffer, a bit older, have injuries -- there's a lot ot be said for 'been there - done that'.
So much for this pep talk to myself.
Enjoy your day,
Gentle Yoga yesterday went well. I was able to try out some of the hip stuff I'd been thinking of. One new person, and he was able to quickly grasp the movements.
I have a 'ritual', so to speak, in the morning. Turn coffee on, turn computer on, get a cup of coffee. Then the first place I go on the internet is to Facebook. It does become addicting to see what everyone's been up to the previous 24 hrs. Lots of pictures are showing up from the Wanderlust Festival (music, yoga, etc., at Lake Tahoe) -- looks like it was fun and, maybe, an attempt to re-create some of that free hippie feeling of the 60's/70's.
Since I was living through those days as a teenager/young adult, re-visiting would be fun but not vital. Kind of like 'been there, done that'. Though, I was never a true hippie (FYI, my father was an Air Force pilot; any kind of unconventional activity would have been out of line, if you get my drift.)
Why tell you all this? Well, perusing the photos from Wanderlust led me to an album of a VERY accomplished yogini. In one of the photos, she was so beautifully 'wound up' in a pose that it was hard to tell from what angle it was shot (front/back/side?). Finally figured it out.
Looking at those kinds of photos gives me pause. Makes me wonder why I'm doing all this -- because, I'm not sure I've enough time left in this lifetime to get into that kind of pose.
I reflect on my words to a class full of people my age and a bit older -- 'why pursue challenge? because it's fun, brings awareness, gives us a greater knowledge of ourselves, makes us more confident'. I do wonder sometimes whether they are listening and thinking -- 'I've seen enough challenge and fun, in my life; I just want to stretch!'
But, here's the rub -- we all need challenge; no matter how much we've seen in our lives. It may be that I am pursuing all this, because I need a challenge (those elusive poses, all the reading, all the study & practice, and stretching emotionally & spiritually beyond long-held boundaries). And, I know that I can communicate to a group of 60+ year-olds the value of challenge in a very plausible way.
Therefore, I am needed and I will be valued for what I can offer to students who are stiffer, a bit older, have injuries -- there's a lot ot be said for 'been there - done that'.
So much for this pep talk to myself.
Enjoy your day,
COMING TOGETHER
As a result of my recent encounter with a government agency endeavoring to change the status of yoga instructors to employees rather than independent contractors, I sent out an 'all call' to area yoga studio owners.
I've invited owners (or their representatives) to a get-together this afternoon to discuss what our experiences have been and how best to proceed, so that we each have a positive outcome.
It will be interesting to watch the dynamics of this diverse group of studio owners/representatives. We all practice our different styles of yoga, we all have our own business success in mind, and this is the first time many of us have been in a meeting together.
Questions for the group: have they received similar correspondence? what will be the financial impact? should we band together to address this issue - politically and legally?
What will come of this? Not sure, but I do know it might open the door for future get-togethers that offer us opportunities to grow and learn from each other; get-togethers that aren't 'crisis-driven'.
What is this? the fun side of studio ownership. Actually, it is fun -- a bit different challenge.
Teaching my Gentle Yoga group this morning -- got some good ideas for hip openers that I'm thinking of introducing to them. Class plans, tho, are always impacted by who shows up for this class.
Have a good day,
I've invited owners (or their representatives) to a get-together this afternoon to discuss what our experiences have been and how best to proceed, so that we each have a positive outcome.
It will be interesting to watch the dynamics of this diverse group of studio owners/representatives. We all practice our different styles of yoga, we all have our own business success in mind, and this is the first time many of us have been in a meeting together.
Questions for the group: have they received similar correspondence? what will be the financial impact? should we band together to address this issue - politically and legally?
What will come of this? Not sure, but I do know it might open the door for future get-togethers that offer us opportunities to grow and learn from each other; get-togethers that aren't 'crisis-driven'.
What is this? the fun side of studio ownership. Actually, it is fun -- a bit different challenge.
Teaching my Gentle Yoga group this morning -- got some good ideas for hip openers that I'm thinking of introducing to them. Class plans, tho, are always impacted by who shows up for this class.
Have a good day,
THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE . . .
I knew there were a few, but this morning a comment appeared for my last post. This comment is from a person NEW to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you. My response to the comment is posted as a comment to that blog entry. (FYI, I've also sent a note to Anusara about the website listing, since the descriptioon of the Santa Fe training is vague.)
So, redemption -- I'm not just sitting here writing notes to myself (tho I've learned a lot over the last six months doing just that).
My husband and I went to see "Julie, Julia" a couple weeks ago (one of those free premiers, if you're wondering why -- since it doesn't come out til August 7). Not to give anything away, but Julie is blogging about her experience cooking Julia Child's recipes. Her great excitement in the beginning of the movie comes from discovering that people really are reading her entries.
I feel similarly each time someone comments.
So, class yesterday went well. I subbed a class that is not an Anusara® class, but their regular instructor does a lot of work with alignment. So, they were familiar with the Principles. It makes teaching go much smoother when I can use some of the terms I use in my own classes and the students get it.
During the class, I decided to do something that is a first for me. Even tho the group was small, I had a student demo Uttanasana. Very flexible person, who was able to place her hands flat on the floor as she folded easily into the pose. Why is this even remarkable? Because, for the first time, I called everyone over, had them stand close, and asked the student to do a contrast demo. Flat hands, straight arms vs. 10 fingers, elbows bent towards side edges of mat (offering more access to shoulder blades).
Students' Response: Flat hands: good; Fingertips & elbows bent: oohs, aahs, they saw a deeper and stronger Uttanasana with more shri throughout the pose. Standing close gave them a bird's eye view of the shoulder blades in action during Uttanasana.
I wonder why I've never done that type of demo before? Of course, I was nervous. I do, upon reflection, have to thank Christina for giving me courage. During the course of our workshop last weekend, she gave us no choice -- we were asked, invited, then strongly encouraged to gather close to observe demos throughout the weekend.
During my student's demo yesterday, by gathering close everyone got to see the impact of bent elbows on the shoulder blades and the deepening of the fold, plus a good view of a very beautiful Uttanasana.
Why waste our energy on 'gorilla uttanasana's', as I call them -- dangling, limp arms with no energetic connection to the ground. Uttanasana deserves better. That's probably another blog topic.
Have a great day,
So, redemption -- I'm not just sitting here writing notes to myself (tho I've learned a lot over the last six months doing just that).
My husband and I went to see "Julie, Julia" a couple weeks ago (one of those free premiers, if you're wondering why -- since it doesn't come out til August 7). Not to give anything away, but Julie is blogging about her experience cooking Julia Child's recipes. Her great excitement in the beginning of the movie comes from discovering that people really are reading her entries.
I feel similarly each time someone comments.
So, class yesterday went well. I subbed a class that is not an Anusara® class, but their regular instructor does a lot of work with alignment. So, they were familiar with the Principles. It makes teaching go much smoother when I can use some of the terms I use in my own classes and the students get it.
During the class, I decided to do something that is a first for me. Even tho the group was small, I had a student demo Uttanasana. Very flexible person, who was able to place her hands flat on the floor as she folded easily into the pose. Why is this even remarkable? Because, for the first time, I called everyone over, had them stand close, and asked the student to do a contrast demo. Flat hands, straight arms vs. 10 fingers, elbows bent towards side edges of mat (offering more access to shoulder blades).
Students' Response: Flat hands: good; Fingertips & elbows bent: oohs, aahs, they saw a deeper and stronger Uttanasana with more shri throughout the pose. Standing close gave them a bird's eye view of the shoulder blades in action during Uttanasana.
I wonder why I've never done that type of demo before? Of course, I was nervous. I do, upon reflection, have to thank Christina for giving me courage. During the course of our workshop last weekend, she gave us no choice -- we were asked, invited, then strongly encouraged to gather close to observe demos throughout the weekend.
During my student's demo yesterday, by gathering close everyone got to see the impact of bent elbows on the shoulder blades and the deepening of the fold, plus a good view of a very beautiful Uttanasana.
Why waste our energy on 'gorilla uttanasana's', as I call them -- dangling, limp arms with no energetic connection to the ground. Uttanasana deserves better. That's probably another blog topic.
Have a great day,
I'VE MADE A LIST
And, I must check it twice, three times, four times. This list is of all the Anusara workshops / trainings happening in the next four months that look of value or interest to me. Note, I said 'to me'; since we all will have our preferences and needs as we motor along this path.
There are eight! Some 4-5 days in length, some just a weekend. None are in Salt Lake; two are within 5-hour driving distance.
This list includes some of the best: John Friend, Sundari, Betsey Downing and Amy Ippoliti (both of whom I have never studied with, but would like to experience), BJ Galvan, Siana & Desiree, Christina Sell.
How to decide?
John is doing a weekend worksop in Park City. I've been accepted to that event, so that's a done deal.
My recent inclination for John is to try to do the trainings that I can get to and that will benefit me (that means all of them, right?). For example, I have applied for Santa Fe since MANY of my students will benefit from the knowledge gained at an Advance Therapeutics Training. Then - if time allows - I try to tack on the weekend workshop. Though, after prodding, gripping, and maneuvering various friends for 5 days, and receiving likewise from those friends, I have to admit I wonder why -- until I start the workshop.
Sundari's doing a Teacher Training in Jackson. Good for me to try to get to that one, since each person I study with has so much different and good information to offer. This reminds me -- she's also doing a workshop in Polson, MT. Would LOVE to go there, experience Sundari and see old friends. Eight-plus hour drive, tho -- that's a bunch.
BJ Galvan's doing a workshop in Springdale, UT. What a great community led by Ann Rutz, and what fun BJ is to study with.
Siana and Desiree are offering a training in San Francisco -- darn, to study with those two in that setting would be mind expanding and offer great travel fun.
Christina and Amy are each doing weekend workshops in northern Idaho. Fortunately for me, my family lives in eastern Washington and it's just a 30-60 minute drive to either venue. And, my parents would enjoy having me visit. They might wonder, tho, why I keep disappearing to go do yoga (or, yogurt - as my Dad loves to call it; let's hope he's teasing).
Nestled among all of this is Betsey Downing doing a weekend workshop in San Diego (Yoga Del Mar). Never have done anything with Betsey. My son and his family live in San Diego. What better excuse to go for a visit. Plus, I have wanted to experience Betsey for a long time.
Well, it's settled -- I'll do them all. If it weren't a physical impossibility, I probably would. But, the reality is that I have to think, plan and work on the logistics of all these offerings.
As I think, there's teaching to be done. Subbing again this morning; the class I mentioned last week. If the same people attend, I'll be ready for 'em. If not, I'll still be ready.
Working on a replacement for the 'Favorite' -- that may just need to move down to join "Perfect Offering" as a keeper.
Enjoy the week.
There are eight! Some 4-5 days in length, some just a weekend. None are in Salt Lake; two are within 5-hour driving distance.
This list includes some of the best: John Friend, Sundari, Betsey Downing and Amy Ippoliti (both of whom I have never studied with, but would like to experience), BJ Galvan, Siana & Desiree, Christina Sell.
How to decide?
John is doing a weekend worksop in Park City. I've been accepted to that event, so that's a done deal.
My recent inclination for John is to try to do the trainings that I can get to and that will benefit me (that means all of them, right?). For example, I have applied for Santa Fe since MANY of my students will benefit from the knowledge gained at an Advance Therapeutics Training. Then - if time allows - I try to tack on the weekend workshop. Though, after prodding, gripping, and maneuvering various friends for 5 days, and receiving likewise from those friends, I have to admit I wonder why -- until I start the workshop.
Sundari's doing a Teacher Training in Jackson. Good for me to try to get to that one, since each person I study with has so much different and good information to offer. This reminds me -- she's also doing a workshop in Polson, MT. Would LOVE to go there, experience Sundari and see old friends. Eight-plus hour drive, tho -- that's a bunch.
BJ Galvan's doing a workshop in Springdale, UT. What a great community led by Ann Rutz, and what fun BJ is to study with.
Siana and Desiree are offering a training in San Francisco -- darn, to study with those two in that setting would be mind expanding and offer great travel fun.
Christina and Amy are each doing weekend workshops in northern Idaho. Fortunately for me, my family lives in eastern Washington and it's just a 30-60 minute drive to either venue. And, my parents would enjoy having me visit. They might wonder, tho, why I keep disappearing to go do yoga (or, yogurt - as my Dad loves to call it; let's hope he's teasing).
Nestled among all of this is Betsey Downing doing a weekend workshop in San Diego (Yoga Del Mar). Never have done anything with Betsey. My son and his family live in San Diego. What better excuse to go for a visit. Plus, I have wanted to experience Betsey for a long time.
Well, it's settled -- I'll do them all. If it weren't a physical impossibility, I probably would. But, the reality is that I have to think, plan and work on the logistics of all these offerings.
As I think, there's teaching to be done. Subbing again this morning; the class I mentioned last week. If the same people attend, I'll be ready for 'em. If not, I'll still be ready.
Working on a replacement for the 'Favorite' -- that may just need to move down to join "Perfect Offering" as a keeper.
Enjoy the week.
BACK TO YOGA . . .
During the weekend workshop with Christina Sell, I was fortunate to hear from her some tips regarding the Certification process (she is a member of the Certification and, also, the Ethics Committees for Anusara® Yoga).
One major point - one I had given little thought to - is the role our students play in our quest to become Anusara® Certified. After all, I've gone to trainings, I've done the reading, I've practiced teaching, I've video'd classes, I, I, I. Think about it, though -- who is in those videos? Me and my students!
Unlike our Yoga Alliance registration, where we must demonstrate the number of hours spent studying, reading, practicing, teaching; the Certification process for Anusara® yoga is designed to be proof positive that all those hours have been effectively applied. How? OUR VIDEO!!!
As it was explained to me, the Certification Committee is not just looking at how I conduct the class -- i.e. do I get a theme and heart quality in there, do I do enough warming up of the students, do I demo effectively and when needed, does the sequence reflect movement towards the apex pose for that class, etc., etc., etc. The video reviewer is also watching the students -- do the students respond, do they do what I ask (and, if not, do I react appropriately), are the alignment principles visible in my students' poses, etc., etc., etc.?
Wow!
As it should be (and as it should have been), attention to this part of the process is a life-long effort -- not just to be done during preparation for and filming of my video. It will create a habit of paying attention, of diligence, of being demanding when needed, and of being a really good yoga teacher -- one who students can reflect on and think: 'she really paid attention to me; I felt seen in her class'.
So - point to remember, as I move forward. My students reflect my teaching ability; it's not just about me and how I perform.
Have a great weekend!
One major point - one I had given little thought to - is the role our students play in our quest to become Anusara® Certified. After all, I've gone to trainings, I've done the reading, I've practiced teaching, I've video'd classes, I, I, I. Think about it, though -- who is in those videos? Me and my students!
Unlike our Yoga Alliance registration, where we must demonstrate the number of hours spent studying, reading, practicing, teaching; the Certification process for Anusara® yoga is designed to be proof positive that all those hours have been effectively applied. How? OUR VIDEO!!!
As it was explained to me, the Certification Committee is not just looking at how I conduct the class -- i.e. do I get a theme and heart quality in there, do I do enough warming up of the students, do I demo effectively and when needed, does the sequence reflect movement towards the apex pose for that class, etc., etc., etc. The video reviewer is also watching the students -- do the students respond, do they do what I ask (and, if not, do I react appropriately), are the alignment principles visible in my students' poses, etc., etc., etc.?
Wow!
As it should be (and as it should have been), attention to this part of the process is a life-long effort -- not just to be done during preparation for and filming of my video. It will create a habit of paying attention, of diligence, of being demanding when needed, and of being a really good yoga teacher -- one who students can reflect on and think: 'she really paid attention to me; I felt seen in her class'.
So - point to remember, as I move forward. My students reflect my teaching ability; it's not just about me and how I perform.
Have a great weekend!
LET THE GAMES BEGIN
I have received notification from a government agency that the Independent Contractor status used by yoga instructors at my studio is in jeopardy (according to the auditor, it is already changed).
Because I truly believe my instructors are Independent Contractors (IC), I will appeal this determination. Yesterday, I responded to a letter of determination, addressing each of the auditor's findings with the reasons I feel instructors do meet the markers to continue as IC's.
I had procrastinated with this project (one of my always-present traits). Because of the workshop and other happenings at the studio, I had left the letter of determination unopened on my desk. Knowing, however, that I had a 15-day deadline to file an appeal, I opened the letter yesterday.
First reading - panic. Call my attorney, call my husband, try to breathe. After a pep talk from the attorney, I returned to the letter. Second, third & fourth reading - with adrenalin rising, I began to type and address each point set out by the auditor. Typing furiously, I was determined to get the letter finished before my 4 pm class. I finished a first draft. Sent a copy to the attorney and to my husband for their input/suggestions. Then, taught my class.
Response from both attorney & husband -- good letter; a few fine tuning adjustments & it will be good to go this morning.
Why do I tell you this in a yoga blog? Because over the weekend (and in the last month), I've seen the power of doing a yoga pose two times in a row, rather than just doing it once and calling it good (that is until the next practice). Yesterday, notice my reactions -- first read-through, panic; second and following read-throughs, calm & more measured response (also, just a bit angry). My other reason: it's good to vent after an adrenalin-raising event like this.
Just like the yoga poses -- first time through, unsure and wondering how it will turn out; second & following times, a more confident response from the body.
While I love to teach yoga, owning a yoga studio keeps throwing me these curve balls lately. It will also be my yoga to receive them, toss them up at least twice and re-catch them, then give it my best shot to respond effectively.
I'm keeping last week's "favorite" -- it will be good for me to keep that in mind as I move through this event in my life.
Wish me luck,
Because I truly believe my instructors are Independent Contractors (IC), I will appeal this determination. Yesterday, I responded to a letter of determination, addressing each of the auditor's findings with the reasons I feel instructors do meet the markers to continue as IC's.
I had procrastinated with this project (one of my always-present traits). Because of the workshop and other happenings at the studio, I had left the letter of determination unopened on my desk. Knowing, however, that I had a 15-day deadline to file an appeal, I opened the letter yesterday.
First reading - panic. Call my attorney, call my husband, try to breathe. After a pep talk from the attorney, I returned to the letter. Second, third & fourth reading - with adrenalin rising, I began to type and address each point set out by the auditor. Typing furiously, I was determined to get the letter finished before my 4 pm class. I finished a first draft. Sent a copy to the attorney and to my husband for their input/suggestions. Then, taught my class.
Response from both attorney & husband -- good letter; a few fine tuning adjustments & it will be good to go this morning.
Why do I tell you this in a yoga blog? Because over the weekend (and in the last month), I've seen the power of doing a yoga pose two times in a row, rather than just doing it once and calling it good (that is until the next practice). Yesterday, notice my reactions -- first read-through, panic; second and following read-throughs, calm & more measured response (also, just a bit angry). My other reason: it's good to vent after an adrenalin-raising event like this.
Just like the yoga poses -- first time through, unsure and wondering how it will turn out; second & following times, a more confident response from the body.
While I love to teach yoga, owning a yoga studio keeps throwing me these curve balls lately. It will also be my yoga to receive them, toss them up at least twice and re-catch them, then give it my best shot to respond effectively.
I'm keeping last week's "favorite" -- it will be good for me to keep that in mind as I move through this event in my life.
Wish me luck,
ONE VERY IMPORTANT THING. . .
During my studies with John Friend and many other Anusara teachers, I have learned to listen. Once I hear the instruction, the next VERY IMPORTANT thing I've learned is to do EXACTLY what he or they tell me to do.
O.K., once in a while I do mix my right and left, but not often.
I learned this early with John -- he is nothing if not demanding about this aspect of our work with him. To not listen is a sign of disrespect. As a result, I carry this learned skill forward into each class I attend. I listen and I at least try to follow instructions and carry out my end of the bargain as the student. In Anusara classes, with a clear sequence leading to an apex pose, many times there are also safety reasons to do just what instructors tell us to do.
If you read much yoga philosophy or history, you will find a long lineage of just such a relationship between student and teacher. The student has always been expected to do the instructor's bidding (so long as it is within proper & ethical boundaries).
The tendency to vary is a recent phenomenon; and perhaps the result of many yoga instructors saying "do whatever your body feels like doing" or "go with the emotions you are feeling". Not bad instructions, but not necessarily safe instructions, either.
Now, to communicate that same message to students in my classes.
If you read back a month or so in this blog, you will find an entry about a student who attended my Gentle Yoga class and did her own practice contrary to the instructions I was offering everyone. Not one of my prouder moments. That morning, for all she got out of my class, she could have stayed home and done her practice, and not offended 8 other people.
I encountered a milder, but similar situation as I subbed a class yesterday. Students who have yet to learn the finer points of studentship and forged ahead without my instruction into a deeper variation of Vasisthasana (side plank) called 'Wild Thing'. Not a bad next step, if you've received the instruction to go there.
After a weekend with Christina, watching - listening - admiring her command of the group, I feel better equipped to deal with such happenings. So, what did I do? I called their bluff. We did a little further exploration of 'Wild Thing', Christina Sell-style. They watched, this time they listened, and the second time around, each had achieved the pose from a different, more challenging approach.
As we moved on in the practice, I kept this tendency towards variance in mind. I even prefaced some instructions with cautionary notes -- like 'do not raise your leg until I tell you to'. I kind of felt like a drill sargeant. On the other hand, I also felt good and in command.
What a rant! Thank you for reading, if you made it this far.
Have a good Tuesday,
O.K., once in a while I do mix my right and left, but not often.
I learned this early with John -- he is nothing if not demanding about this aspect of our work with him. To not listen is a sign of disrespect. As a result, I carry this learned skill forward into each class I attend. I listen and I at least try to follow instructions and carry out my end of the bargain as the student. In Anusara classes, with a clear sequence leading to an apex pose, many times there are also safety reasons to do just what instructors tell us to do.
If you read much yoga philosophy or history, you will find a long lineage of just such a relationship between student and teacher. The student has always been expected to do the instructor's bidding (so long as it is within proper & ethical boundaries).
The tendency to vary is a recent phenomenon; and perhaps the result of many yoga instructors saying "do whatever your body feels like doing" or "go with the emotions you are feeling". Not bad instructions, but not necessarily safe instructions, either.
Now, to communicate that same message to students in my classes.
If you read back a month or so in this blog, you will find an entry about a student who attended my Gentle Yoga class and did her own practice contrary to the instructions I was offering everyone. Not one of my prouder moments. That morning, for all she got out of my class, she could have stayed home and done her practice, and not offended 8 other people.
I encountered a milder, but similar situation as I subbed a class yesterday. Students who have yet to learn the finer points of studentship and forged ahead without my instruction into a deeper variation of Vasisthasana (side plank) called 'Wild Thing'. Not a bad next step, if you've received the instruction to go there.
After a weekend with Christina, watching - listening - admiring her command of the group, I feel better equipped to deal with such happenings. So, what did I do? I called their bluff. We did a little further exploration of 'Wild Thing', Christina Sell-style. They watched, this time they listened, and the second time around, each had achieved the pose from a different, more challenging approach.
As we moved on in the practice, I kept this tendency towards variance in mind. I even prefaced some instructions with cautionary notes -- like 'do not raise your leg until I tell you to'. I kind of felt like a drill sargeant. On the other hand, I also felt good and in command.
What a rant! Thank you for reading, if you made it this far.
Have a good Tuesday,