MONUMENTAL DAY ONE !!!
Day one of the Immersion III training with JF went like this -- lecture, practice, lecture in the morning; lecture, practice, short meditation in the afternoon.
In addition to talking about the Tattvas (principles), he moved into the Bhagavad Gita. This book, I had been told, is actually our story. I had resisted that notion. Why? Because no one ever told me why -- they just said it. And, even though I have read it at least 3 times, I had never done an in-depth study with anyone on the book. Yesterday JF began to tell us why (through the first six chapters). Ahhh, the light of understanding begins to shine. (oh, well, only took 8 years or so)
We moved into Cakras, and - with Anodea Judith in attendance - we had not only JF to offer, but Anodea gave us some great info to work with, as well.
And, as I begin to write, know that I have some notes to transcribe, so this will be another 'quickly' written blog post; just enough to let you know what I'm up to and that I'm still around.
At an event like this, we meet many of our friends from past events, many of our current kula companions, and there's this incredible opportunity to meet new friends -- people we may have communicated with on Facebook or through things like this blog, or never have had contact with. It is an amazing opportunity. It is also a bit daunting for someone like me. My 'love my comfort zone' personality is thrown into a whole new realm at an event like this. I'm asked to really step into a space I'm not always comfortable with. Not a bad thing, just fact. It also fit perfectly with JF's theme for our morning practice -- turning up the tapas (heat) once in a while, stir the pot, and voila! Some change, some growth, certainly more awareness.
Best news of MY day: 5 (count'em FIVE) urdhva dhanurasanas in a row with almost-straight arms ! (For my non-yoga friends - those are backbends or wheel.) The key? Taking my head further back, which created more shoulder blade support, which resulted in a slowmotion ride into the pose. Slow, not because it was hard; slow, because I could feel what was happening and maybe I just wanted to savor it (!?!?!?).
So, on to notes.
Have a great Tuesday, I plan to. . .
In addition to talking about the Tattvas (principles), he moved into the Bhagavad Gita. This book, I had been told, is actually our story. I had resisted that notion. Why? Because no one ever told me why -- they just said it. And, even though I have read it at least 3 times, I had never done an in-depth study with anyone on the book. Yesterday JF began to tell us why (through the first six chapters). Ahhh, the light of understanding begins to shine. (oh, well, only took 8 years or so)
We moved into Cakras, and - with Anodea Judith in attendance - we had not only JF to offer, but Anodea gave us some great info to work with, as well.
And, as I begin to write, know that I have some notes to transcribe, so this will be another 'quickly' written blog post; just enough to let you know what I'm up to and that I'm still around.
At an event like this, we meet many of our friends from past events, many of our current kula companions, and there's this incredible opportunity to meet new friends -- people we may have communicated with on Facebook or through things like this blog, or never have had contact with. It is an amazing opportunity. It is also a bit daunting for someone like me. My 'love my comfort zone' personality is thrown into a whole new realm at an event like this. I'm asked to really step into a space I'm not always comfortable with. Not a bad thing, just fact. It also fit perfectly with JF's theme for our morning practice -- turning up the tapas (heat) once in a while, stir the pot, and voila! Some change, some growth, certainly more awareness.
Best news of MY day: 5 (count'em FIVE) urdhva dhanurasanas in a row with almost-straight arms ! (For my non-yoga friends - those are backbends or wheel.) The key? Taking my head further back, which created more shoulder blade support, which resulted in a slowmotion ride into the pose. Slow, not because it was hard; slow, because I could feel what was happening and maybe I just wanted to savor it (!?!?!?).
So, on to notes.
Have a great Tuesday, I plan to. . .
QUICKLY
Just a few minutes before the big day begins. Monday of a training is always a bit hard on the nerves -- do I have writing materials, do I need any manuals, do I have my props, do I have a snack, and the biggie: WHAT DO I WEAR?
Yoga clothes - yes; but, which ones? Oh my, such a decision on this day. The fact that I have lost a few pounds gives me greater flexibility in choices (and more choices). Hate tight yoga clothes and having my belly hanging out; not to mention those over-flowing yoga tops (referred to as 'boobalicious' by a good friend of mind). Enough on that.
So, wish me luck. This morning -- the culmination of one of my big dreams -- I'm going early to help direct the set-up of mats.
Before I go, however, a big SHOUT-OUT to MariaCristina on her Certification! HIP HIP HOORAY!
Enjoy Monday,
Yoga clothes - yes; but, which ones? Oh my, such a decision on this day. The fact that I have lost a few pounds gives me greater flexibility in choices (and more choices). Hate tight yoga clothes and having my belly hanging out; not to mention those over-flowing yoga tops (referred to as 'boobalicious' by a good friend of mind). Enough on that.
So, wish me luck. This morning -- the culmination of one of my big dreams -- I'm going early to help direct the set-up of mats.
Before I go, however, a big SHOUT-OUT to MariaCristina on her Certification! HIP HIP HOORAY!
Enjoy Monday,
HOLDING BACK OUT OF RESPECT
I often admire the person (or yoga instructor) who is able to sit with equanimity, observing yet not participating, as another teaches. Lots of self-discipline there. Lots of self-knowledge, too, I think. Able to know that you could jump in, yet choosing not to; hopefully, out of respect for the person in the 'seat' (seat of the teacher, as we call it).
Examples?
In a class (not mine), we partnered 3 people to the group as we worked on handstand. One person trying to kick, the other two there to offer advice and assistance, if needed. Being one of the three, I let the 'placement' work itself out -- who would kick and who would observe. I'd love to have offered my insights. Clearly, tho, the other observer wanted to be the 'teacher' for our group. Choices? To jump in and offer another source of information; or, step back and observe. Result? I stepped back and observed. Interesting - both to observe them and to observe my own inner workings. The offerings I would have given would have been different, presented in a different manner, yet nothing our partner did was incorrect or off-base; so, it worked out fine. Bonus? I got to experience in myself that equanimity that I sometimes envy (ooohh -- not the best word in the yoga world).
In keeping with the equanimity theme, a private this week offered another example. I gave instructions and guidance, yet observed the actions and results a good deal of the time. So much so, that the student became concerned about what I was thinking. (Maybe I carried 'equanimity' too far?) There are times, tho, when the balance of equanimity and action are needed -- we can't always be doing, saying, moving, explaining, demonstrating. There ought to be times when I simply sit or stand quietly and observe (don't cross my arms, tho -- that's a personal 'no-no'). This time spent observing gives me more insight to the student, their movement habits, their trigger points of pain -- it is one of the keys to good yoga therapy.
Finally, and this triggered this blog topic. Yoga teachers in a yoga event -- how do we act/react? I have always been one who will ask a question, make a comment - when appropriate, demo when asked. I will never usurp the teacher's position of authority -- no matter what I've heard in a JF (or someone else's) workshop or training (unless the instruction puts someone in danger; never had to do it, tho). I also will never do something that I haven't been instructed to do (i.e. taking malasana to bakasana -- unless I've been instructed to). Why? There are many times when the sequencing of a class is precise enough that doing an unasked-for pose inbetween is counterproductive. Not to mention the 'watch me do this' factor. I also believe that I am there as a student, to learn, to listen, to be as respectful as I would want my own students to be.
Enough.
But, remember this. In a JF event I attended, people took a pose further than they were instructed to do. He stopped us. He explained his sequencing, and that taking the pose further impeded progress in the direction he would be taking us. It was firm. It was - perhaps - embarrassing to those involved. He was our guide and he was in charge. That example reinforced my attitude in every class or practice I attend where someone else is directing the movement.
(That last paragraph is for some of you who might read this, who are signed up for a JF event and have never experienced him before.)
BTW, speaking of JF, just one day -- bright and early tomorrow morning, I'll be on my way to Park City. First thing on the agenda? I signed up to be one of the 'mat generals' -- definition: one who tells you where to put your mat to maximize space in the room. Ahhh, POWER!
Enjoy Sunday,
Examples?
In a class (not mine), we partnered 3 people to the group as we worked on handstand. One person trying to kick, the other two there to offer advice and assistance, if needed. Being one of the three, I let the 'placement' work itself out -- who would kick and who would observe. I'd love to have offered my insights. Clearly, tho, the other observer wanted to be the 'teacher' for our group. Choices? To jump in and offer another source of information; or, step back and observe. Result? I stepped back and observed. Interesting - both to observe them and to observe my own inner workings. The offerings I would have given would have been different, presented in a different manner, yet nothing our partner did was incorrect or off-base; so, it worked out fine. Bonus? I got to experience in myself that equanimity that I sometimes envy (ooohh -- not the best word in the yoga world).
In keeping with the equanimity theme, a private this week offered another example. I gave instructions and guidance, yet observed the actions and results a good deal of the time. So much so, that the student became concerned about what I was thinking. (Maybe I carried 'equanimity' too far?) There are times, tho, when the balance of equanimity and action are needed -- we can't always be doing, saying, moving, explaining, demonstrating. There ought to be times when I simply sit or stand quietly and observe (don't cross my arms, tho -- that's a personal 'no-no'). This time spent observing gives me more insight to the student, their movement habits, their trigger points of pain -- it is one of the keys to good yoga therapy.
Finally, and this triggered this blog topic. Yoga teachers in a yoga event -- how do we act/react? I have always been one who will ask a question, make a comment - when appropriate, demo when asked. I will never usurp the teacher's position of authority -- no matter what I've heard in a JF (or someone else's) workshop or training (unless the instruction puts someone in danger; never had to do it, tho). I also will never do something that I haven't been instructed to do (i.e. taking malasana to bakasana -- unless I've been instructed to). Why? There are many times when the sequencing of a class is precise enough that doing an unasked-for pose inbetween is counterproductive. Not to mention the 'watch me do this' factor. I also believe that I am there as a student, to learn, to listen, to be as respectful as I would want my own students to be.
Enough.
But, remember this. In a JF event I attended, people took a pose further than they were instructed to do. He stopped us. He explained his sequencing, and that taking the pose further impeded progress in the direction he would be taking us. It was firm. It was - perhaps - embarrassing to those involved. He was our guide and he was in charge. That example reinforced my attitude in every class or practice I attend where someone else is directing the movement.
(That last paragraph is for some of you who might read this, who are signed up for a JF event and have never experienced him before.)
BTW, speaking of JF, just one day -- bright and early tomorrow morning, I'll be on my way to Park City. First thing on the agenda? I signed up to be one of the 'mat generals' -- definition: one who tells you where to put your mat to maximize space in the room. Ahhh, POWER!
Enjoy Sunday,
FRIDAY & 10-YEAR-OLDS
Friday notes day (& 10-year-olds)??? What could she mean?
In my Yoga Hour class yesterday, I had a 10-year-old appear. Now, this is a one-hour class designed for an adult population. I do make one exception - 10-year-olds. They are focused and very attentive students -- even laugh at my jokes! What more could I ask of any student.
The week was a good one; back to my normal schedule of teaching and attending classes. What did I learn?
1. That it is difficult to film a class you're subbing. I tried it on Monday - the students are great practitioners, but unwilling to line their mats up in true Anusara® style (this is not an Anusara® class and I believe they have their regular spots in the room, plus - if they noticed it - the camera was a bit intimidating.) I cajoled and encouraged a bit; but, for the sake of class harmony, I let it go. Filmed with a big empty space in the front row -- good for demos, anyway.
2. Students struggling with high blood pressure can benefit from as much as a 20-point drop in pressure after a yoga class. This shared to me by a student who regularly tracks blood pressure.
3. Even one yoga class can make a difference. I have a student who regularly brings family members to class. Her brother attended his first yoga class in May; showed up for his second in August. I didn't remember his name, but as we moved through the practice, I remembered the way he moved in the first class. In the second, I was pleased to see increased awareness. One class. Now, two. Can't wait to see what I see in #3. (Ahhh, poets -- watch out!)
4. Make your suggestions - what's the worst that can happen? So long as they're well thought through and clearly stated. I worry many times about asking questions, making suggestions, commenting on something - why? I worry I won't sound smart enough, or maybe I should have learned this already, or maybe it's already been thought of. BUT, if there's even a 'niggle' (new favorite word) of doubt that it's been asked, thought of, or suggested, I now will go ahead. Stick my neck out.
Oh, it's not always going to work out in my favor. For example: I recently answered a question - quite authoritatively and with confidence I was correct, I thought. Turns out, according to another person, I was wrong. Now what? Move forward; learn from it; take it in stride, be humble. Not easy, but do-able.
5. SSA (or ASS) - Sensitivity, Stabilize, Adjust
I find I've been doing a lot of therapeutics in my classes lately (remember a post a while back about how 'students will begin to appear; students who have stuff going on'). I'm going through notes, and I came to John's acronym to use in adjustments and therapeutics. His teaching: do SSA; because if you reverse order, you see what we may become in the eyes of someone we're trying to help.
Sensitivity - Tell the student what is going to happen. Then touch and sync with the student, through their breath and heartbeat. Touch is firm, yet sensitive. Fully engaging with hands. I've had an adjustment once that was a light brushing of the hand over my leg -- I've never forgotten it (eeaaauuuu!). I did, however, move away from the hand -- which might have been the intention of the assisting person.
Stabilize - the firm touch of your hands will transmit your sensitive side and also help to stabilize whatever/wherever you are attempting to adjust. There are poses where we use our legs, hips, etc., to help stabilize. Once the adjustment is made, I always let the student know that I'm going to move away -- just a precaution, in case they're relying on me to hold them up.
Adjust - As with my touch, my adjustment needs to be firm yet sensitive. I check in as I move the student. I use my sensitivity to their breath to make the adjustment more effective.
These 3 things transmit to the student that I am capable, I know what I'm doing, and they are safe with me. And, if the adjustment doesn't work (doesn't relieve whatever I'd hoped), then I must be humble enough to acknowledge that, think for a moment, and try something different or tell student I am going to research this a bit more, and I can work with them further when they visit me next (then do it - the research).
6. And, finally, a quote I found 3 days ago and is so applicable this morning: "Change is inevitable; growth is optional."
Have a nice Friday,
In my Yoga Hour class yesterday, I had a 10-year-old appear. Now, this is a one-hour class designed for an adult population. I do make one exception - 10-year-olds. They are focused and very attentive students -- even laugh at my jokes! What more could I ask of any student.
The week was a good one; back to my normal schedule of teaching and attending classes. What did I learn?
1. That it is difficult to film a class you're subbing. I tried it on Monday - the students are great practitioners, but unwilling to line their mats up in true Anusara® style (this is not an Anusara® class and I believe they have their regular spots in the room, plus - if they noticed it - the camera was a bit intimidating.) I cajoled and encouraged a bit; but, for the sake of class harmony, I let it go. Filmed with a big empty space in the front row -- good for demos, anyway.
2. Students struggling with high blood pressure can benefit from as much as a 20-point drop in pressure after a yoga class. This shared to me by a student who regularly tracks blood pressure.
3. Even one yoga class can make a difference. I have a student who regularly brings family members to class. Her brother attended his first yoga class in May; showed up for his second in August. I didn't remember his name, but as we moved through the practice, I remembered the way he moved in the first class. In the second, I was pleased to see increased awareness. One class. Now, two. Can't wait to see what I see in #3. (Ahhh, poets -- watch out!)
4. Make your suggestions - what's the worst that can happen? So long as they're well thought through and clearly stated. I worry many times about asking questions, making suggestions, commenting on something - why? I worry I won't sound smart enough, or maybe I should have learned this already, or maybe it's already been thought of. BUT, if there's even a 'niggle' (new favorite word) of doubt that it's been asked, thought of, or suggested, I now will go ahead. Stick my neck out.
Oh, it's not always going to work out in my favor. For example: I recently answered a question - quite authoritatively and with confidence I was correct, I thought. Turns out, according to another person, I was wrong. Now what? Move forward; learn from it; take it in stride, be humble. Not easy, but do-able.
5. SSA (or ASS) - Sensitivity, Stabilize, Adjust
I find I've been doing a lot of therapeutics in my classes lately (remember a post a while back about how 'students will begin to appear; students who have stuff going on'). I'm going through notes, and I came to John's acronym to use in adjustments and therapeutics. His teaching: do SSA; because if you reverse order, you see what we may become in the eyes of someone we're trying to help.
Sensitivity - Tell the student what is going to happen. Then touch and sync with the student, through their breath and heartbeat. Touch is firm, yet sensitive. Fully engaging with hands. I've had an adjustment once that was a light brushing of the hand over my leg -- I've never forgotten it (eeaaauuuu!). I did, however, move away from the hand -- which might have been the intention of the assisting person.
Stabilize - the firm touch of your hands will transmit your sensitive side and also help to stabilize whatever/wherever you are attempting to adjust. There are poses where we use our legs, hips, etc., to help stabilize. Once the adjustment is made, I always let the student know that I'm going to move away -- just a precaution, in case they're relying on me to hold them up.
Adjust - As with my touch, my adjustment needs to be firm yet sensitive. I check in as I move the student. I use my sensitivity to their breath to make the adjustment more effective.
These 3 things transmit to the student that I am capable, I know what I'm doing, and they are safe with me. And, if the adjustment doesn't work (doesn't relieve whatever I'd hoped), then I must be humble enough to acknowledge that, think for a moment, and try something different or tell student I am going to research this a bit more, and I can work with them further when they visit me next (then do it - the research).
6. And, finally, a quote I found 3 days ago and is so applicable this morning: "Change is inevitable; growth is optional."
Have a nice Friday,
IDEAS & THEIR IMPLEMENTATION . . .
Yesterday, I finally took action on an idea I've had rolling around in my head for several years. I suggested to my physician a 'wellness series' for patients. A series of classes that might include discussion of diet, exercise, lifestyle adjustments, meditation & yoga (of course), etc., held in their offices, perhaps one evening a week for 4-6 weeks.
This physician is part of a large group, with a good-sized office, staff, and patient population. My doctor has mentioned, in the past, referring patients to me - so, I knew there was respect for yoga's potential. Then, why do this? Well, for a number of reasons:
This physician is part of a large group, with a good-sized office, staff, and patient population. My doctor has mentioned, in the past, referring patients to me - so, I knew there was respect for yoga's potential. Then, why do this? Well, for a number of reasons:
- It's a 'pro-active' method of healthcare management (my physician's words),
- Many patients will benefit from the topics that could be discussed/presented in this forum,
- Some patients may not search out resources for #2; but, if their physician puts it in front of them, that might change, and
- Some patients are not aware of the health benefits of some services (i.e. yoga)
For me (or other yoga teachers), this potential forum will provide us an opportunity to offer yoga and its benefits to a population that may not, as a whole, consider entering a yoga studio or yoga class. Why? Well, for some, cost is a factor. And, for a lot of people, physical factors may affect this thought process (i.e. "Me? Do yoga? I can't touch my toes and I'm not young or fit or thin (whatever) enough."
Yet, think about the benefits of yoga for people:
- Breathwork - increase lung function; not to mention the breath's impact on anxiety and other wellbeing issues.
- Blood pressure - as in, lowering.
- Weight control - for me, beginning yoga also brought an unexpected 30-lb loss (needed); and with the exception of 5 lbs, that weight has stayed off as I continue to practice.
- Emotional wellness - anxiety is an increasing issue for many people. Consider, also, self-esteem and self-confidence issues.
- Therapeutic benefits of movement for joints, muscles, osteoporosis, etc., etc., etc.
- A social connection, which will contribute to emotional wellness.
I could go on (I remember an article somewhere with over 100 benefits of yoga), but I'll stop here. There are many benefits; and getting that message to more people is the challenge.
So, I quickly wrote an e-mail to my physician yesterday, then went in for a routine appointment in the afternoon - at which I brought it up again. This morning, I awoke to an e-mail from said physician expressing pleasure with the suggestion and asking for more details. Wow!
What did I learn? Once again, I'm reminded that my ideas are good ones and have merit. I just have to get them out there. After all, what's the worst thing my physician could have said? "No". No big deal, because nothing happens unless we ask (a good axiom I've brought along from my fundraising days).
Today's Activities:
- Expand on my suggestion and send it off -- no procrastination; strike while the iron is 'hot'
- Pilates at 1 pm
- Teaching YogaHour at 4 pm at The Yoga Center
- Jen's class at The Yoga Center
Hope your day is a good one - and, remember, sometimes we have to niggle our way into peoples' thought processes. Not necessarily 'answering the question that hasn't been asked', but at least letting people know we're out here and we have good, valuable ideas and teachings to offer.
FIVE DAYS
Spending a week with JF in a training and workshop can be both exciting and daunting. There will be so much to learn (and re-learn); there will be tons of physical effort in each day; yet there will also be the aspects of community, friendship, laughter and respect that balance the anticipated effort and work.
I posted last year that during the weekend workshop, I practiced in all 8 sessions. Perhaps not prettily, but I was there and I was giving it my best effort. I've been wondering about a repeat 'performance' this year. After a full week of asana each day, it may be better for me to just do the workshop I've signed up for and let someone else do all 8 sessions. We'll see.
My class(es) yesterday were fun. I have a new student who continues to surprise and please me, as a teacher. He has a stressful job, and has never done yoga before. He came in with a very open attitude, ready and willing to work to reduce the stress in his life. I enjoy introducing him to the poses, the UPA's, the magic of this practice. Best of all, he relates that his BP is lowered by the practice.
In YogaHour we ventured into handstand territory. First, in the middle of the room, we partnered and used the 'leg-press' method to come up ('leg-press' = down dog, step one foot forward slightly, lift other and press that straight leg into your parner's hand to come up). Then each student went to the wall and practiced their kicks. Fun and powerful!
As we gear up for a week with JF, The Shop is getting ready also. A volunteer sign-up sheet was available, so I signed up to be a 'mat monitor' on two days -- meaning? I'll set up a sample mat layout and help people align their mats to maximize space. I understand there are 150 people signed up for the Immersion, so mat space will be tight.
Today's schedule:
Gentle Yoga, 10 am at The Yoga Center
Errands and an appointment in the afternoon
Hope your Wednesday is great,
I posted last year that during the weekend workshop, I practiced in all 8 sessions. Perhaps not prettily, but I was there and I was giving it my best effort. I've been wondering about a repeat 'performance' this year. After a full week of asana each day, it may be better for me to just do the workshop I've signed up for and let someone else do all 8 sessions. We'll see.
My class(es) yesterday were fun. I have a new student who continues to surprise and please me, as a teacher. He has a stressful job, and has never done yoga before. He came in with a very open attitude, ready and willing to work to reduce the stress in his life. I enjoy introducing him to the poses, the UPA's, the magic of this practice. Best of all, he relates that his BP is lowered by the practice.
In YogaHour we ventured into handstand territory. First, in the middle of the room, we partnered and used the 'leg-press' method to come up ('leg-press' = down dog, step one foot forward slightly, lift other and press that straight leg into your parner's hand to come up). Then each student went to the wall and practiced their kicks. Fun and powerful!
As we gear up for a week with JF, The Shop is getting ready also. A volunteer sign-up sheet was available, so I signed up to be a 'mat monitor' on two days -- meaning? I'll set up a sample mat layout and help people align their mats to maximize space. I understand there are 150 people signed up for the Immersion, so mat space will be tight.
Today's schedule:
Gentle Yoga, 10 am at The Yoga Center
Errands and an appointment in the afternoon
Hope your Wednesday is great,
AND, NOW, SIX
Six days until Immersion III begins.
The class I subbed for Mary went well - very well-schooled practitioners, who have learned tons of alignment from Mary (who is working towards a Certification with Dave Stryker). Her dance background contributes to this alignment emphasis, plus her continuing work to attend training and workshops, including many with Anusara® instructors.
And, I did do some work around the studio after class - including some cleaning. Next stop my storeroom - it's a bit out of control right now.
I stuck with my plan to attend Tiffany's class last night. Great class, accompanied by Leraine Horstmanshoff on guitar, didgeridoo, voice, etc. One of the fun parts was Leraine's little dog - cutest little thing, and he has attitude -- you just don't walk up to that dog and expect to be welcomed. He does not have the Golden Retriever or Lab personality -- more of a Schnauzer with a little pit bull thrown in (all wrapped in a 3-lb package). He conducted himself very well, sleeping as we practiced; once or twice throwing in a well-timed bark as people walked their dogs by the studio.
Enough about the dog -- an indication of how much I love dogs.
A practice with Tiffany is fun and a great learning experience for me. She has worked hard to develop her voice and the students clearly love her. Big group - must have been 40 in the room. Add Leraine to the mix and the energy level goes way up. Leraine's timing is impeccable -- throwing in a few didgeridoo 'dog barks' each time we were asked to assume down dog. Even a little 'cat meow' towards the end.
Tiffany worked us in handstand at the wall and in urdhva dhanurasana. She knows me. That explains why each time she explained both of these poses to the group, I believe there were well-placed looks in my direction. I'd like to think she was transmitting 'you getting this?' The timing and partnering didn't allow me time to try to kick, but I did do a reasonable assisted handstand to the wall -- that was fun and I felt good afterwards.
The urdhva -- well, let's just say the journey to the top of my head went well. Then, hit the 'stop' button. Funny how this pose is really sporadic for me. I pushed up Friday night, but Monday - no (at least not without some help). I'm still stuck on trying to push up with my arms 75% of the time (once in a while, the shoulders and shoulderblades get it - those are the successful times). My hope is that - with continued practice and a knowledge and cultivation of the push, it will begin to happen more consistently.
So, today?
Teaching Level 1 at The Yoga Center at 10 am
Practice
A few errands
Teaching YogaHour, also at The Yoga Center, 4 pm
Hope your day is a good one,
The class I subbed for Mary went well - very well-schooled practitioners, who have learned tons of alignment from Mary (who is working towards a Certification with Dave Stryker). Her dance background contributes to this alignment emphasis, plus her continuing work to attend training and workshops, including many with Anusara® instructors.
And, I did do some work around the studio after class - including some cleaning. Next stop my storeroom - it's a bit out of control right now.
I stuck with my plan to attend Tiffany's class last night. Great class, accompanied by Leraine Horstmanshoff on guitar, didgeridoo, voice, etc. One of the fun parts was Leraine's little dog - cutest little thing, and he has attitude -- you just don't walk up to that dog and expect to be welcomed. He does not have the Golden Retriever or Lab personality -- more of a Schnauzer with a little pit bull thrown in (all wrapped in a 3-lb package). He conducted himself very well, sleeping as we practiced; once or twice throwing in a well-timed bark as people walked their dogs by the studio.
Enough about the dog -- an indication of how much I love dogs.
A practice with Tiffany is fun and a great learning experience for me. She has worked hard to develop her voice and the students clearly love her. Big group - must have been 40 in the room. Add Leraine to the mix and the energy level goes way up. Leraine's timing is impeccable -- throwing in a few didgeridoo 'dog barks' each time we were asked to assume down dog. Even a little 'cat meow' towards the end.
Tiffany worked us in handstand at the wall and in urdhva dhanurasana. She knows me. That explains why each time she explained both of these poses to the group, I believe there were well-placed looks in my direction. I'd like to think she was transmitting 'you getting this?' The timing and partnering didn't allow me time to try to kick, but I did do a reasonable assisted handstand to the wall -- that was fun and I felt good afterwards.
The urdhva -- well, let's just say the journey to the top of my head went well. Then, hit the 'stop' button. Funny how this pose is really sporadic for me. I pushed up Friday night, but Monday - no (at least not without some help). I'm still stuck on trying to push up with my arms 75% of the time (once in a while, the shoulders and shoulderblades get it - those are the successful times). My hope is that - with continued practice and a knowledge and cultivation of the push, it will begin to happen more consistently.
So, today?
Teaching Level 1 at The Yoga Center at 10 am
Practice
A few errands
Teaching YogaHour, also at The Yoga Center, 4 pm
Hope your day is a good one,
SEVEN DAYS & COUNTING
Counting down until JF begins Immersion 3 in Park City. Happy to be anticipating and participating in this great week - another opportunity to connect with old friends and meet some new ones, enjoy practicing under John's guidance, and learning.
I attended John's Immersion 1 in San Francisco. I'm embarrassed to say that "super note-taker" (me) fell down on her job for that event -- oh, I took notes, I just didn't transcribe them as soon as I should have. Some of their 'sakti' has been lost to procrastination. Unfortunately, I missed Immersion 2 -- a long way to travel right about the time my Father and Mother were moving.
My plan is to do a better job at this Immersion of both note-taking and note-transcribing. Then, there's the practice portion -- a major memory of San Francisco is the amount and intensity of the asana we did during each of the 5 days. Not necessarily the most challenging poses, but lonnnggg holds and lots of them.
It will be fun!
I had lots of good stuff planned for Saturday morning and had planned to video; at the last minute, decided - no, not this morning. Why? One new-to-yoga person arrived - now, that would be a good thing to incorporate into a video -- an indication of how I handle the unexpected. Sometimes, tho, I just can't predict what will happen -- how much body awareness the person has, what their learning style is, what injuries they have. Plus, with the camera on, everyone gets a bit more nervous -- not the best or nicest thing to do to a new-to-yoga person. So, no video this week.
My Saturday afternoon was quiet - culminating with a weekly private, then dinner with Howard. Sunday was equally quiet - we started out with a nice walk in a nearby canyon (lots of uphill), then puttered around the yard and house, then dinner and an outdoor concert. Nice day.
As I re-read my last post, I felt I didn't quite explain the value of the bullet-pointed things I keep noticing in my notes. It's important to know that these are things that JF tell us in every training - maybe multiple times in a training. Rather than filling space in my notes, I hope they reflect the importance of remembering these points when I plan and teach. Just needed to say that.
Today's schedule:
Painters coming to the house to give an estimate (!?!?!)
Teaching for Mary at 10, Vinyasa 1-2 (Anusara-Inspired™ by me)
Home to do laundry, clean, whatever
Class with Tiffany
Enjoy your Monday,
I attended John's Immersion 1 in San Francisco. I'm embarrassed to say that "super note-taker" (me) fell down on her job for that event -- oh, I took notes, I just didn't transcribe them as soon as I should have. Some of their 'sakti' has been lost to procrastination. Unfortunately, I missed Immersion 2 -- a long way to travel right about the time my Father and Mother were moving.
My plan is to do a better job at this Immersion of both note-taking and note-transcribing. Then, there's the practice portion -- a major memory of San Francisco is the amount and intensity of the asana we did during each of the 5 days. Not necessarily the most challenging poses, but lonnnggg holds and lots of them.
It will be fun!
I had lots of good stuff planned for Saturday morning and had planned to video; at the last minute, decided - no, not this morning. Why? One new-to-yoga person arrived - now, that would be a good thing to incorporate into a video -- an indication of how I handle the unexpected. Sometimes, tho, I just can't predict what will happen -- how much body awareness the person has, what their learning style is, what injuries they have. Plus, with the camera on, everyone gets a bit more nervous -- not the best or nicest thing to do to a new-to-yoga person. So, no video this week.
My Saturday afternoon was quiet - culminating with a weekly private, then dinner with Howard. Sunday was equally quiet - we started out with a nice walk in a nearby canyon (lots of uphill), then puttered around the yard and house, then dinner and an outdoor concert. Nice day.
As I re-read my last post, I felt I didn't quite explain the value of the bullet-pointed things I keep noticing in my notes. It's important to know that these are things that JF tell us in every training - maybe multiple times in a training. Rather than filling space in my notes, I hope they reflect the importance of remembering these points when I plan and teach. Just needed to say that.
Today's schedule:
Painters coming to the house to give an estimate (!?!?!)
Teaching for Mary at 10, Vinyasa 1-2 (Anusara-Inspired™ by me)
Home to do laundry, clean, whatever
Class with Tiffany
Enjoy your Monday,
CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED FRIDAY . . .
True, but unbelievable nevertheless. I love writing in the blog on Fridays. I know that it will be a 'bullet-point' format; so, I don't need to write much on any one topic, plus I love offering a bit of information that readers might find useful. Oh, well -- I'll just take the opportunity on Saturday morning to write Friday's 'notes'. Here goes:
1. I just spent a few frantic moments trying to remember why I didn't write yesterday. I did remember -- I was watching a video (yoga, of course); more therapeutic in nature, by Gary Kraftsow. Not sure how he fits in the scheme of Anusara® technique, but there are obviously things I can 'borrow' and use. Movement that will help students and that can be adapted. The video was about upper and lower back issues. Just hearing his description of causes, types of pain, back mechanics, etc., was good for me.
2. This week I was hit with awareness - from Monday's night class with Tiffany until yesterday (and, perhaps, beyond) - the word 'awareness' kept moving into my field -- either through verbal transmission, reading, or practicing. One very powerful awareness for me came in the form of my own legs.
To explain, Cindy's theory about my lack of success in kicking up is that my hamstring muscles are tight, which means they are weak, leaving no 'kick' in my kick.. No argument with the tight part, but I had not thought of them as weak. So, since she mentioned this phenomenon, I've been doing work to strengthen and lengthen them (probably something I should have been doing for years; but, no one ever said it to me like that before).
As I participated in the Pilates class Thursday, another revelation -- weak abductor muscles!!! So, hips are weak, also. More work. The good part? I have goals, I know specifics to work on -- that always makes me a happier camper.
3. Teaching this week felt stiff, until yesterday. Not sure why -- maybe out of practice after almost two weeks away. The absence also decimates class attendance - blahhhh! Yesterday, however, I went in prepared -- my stuff, plus a few new things I adapted from the Kraftsow video. The students in class struggle with low back, hip and SI joint issues, so what I 'adapted' offered them specific things to work on. Unlike 99% of the classes I teach, I did a few of these hip strengtheners with them -- need it.
4. I attended The Practice last night at my studio. Fun and laughter were present throughout the room; plus some challenging poses offered. Let's just say, there were some glistening droplets of perspiration adorning my mat about 10 minutes into the actual practice. I am always amazed that I can work up a good 'sweat' doing what seem to be simple (and slow) things. For me, it demonstrates that I am truly working within my body - this 'glistening' represents my whole body's active participation in the poses. I don't have to move fast, never pausing, never 'thinking' (horrors) -- I just have to apply myself.
5. I'm going through my notes, looking for something to offer and I keep seeing these phrases:
1. I just spent a few frantic moments trying to remember why I didn't write yesterday. I did remember -- I was watching a video (yoga, of course); more therapeutic in nature, by Gary Kraftsow. Not sure how he fits in the scheme of Anusara® technique, but there are obviously things I can 'borrow' and use. Movement that will help students and that can be adapted. The video was about upper and lower back issues. Just hearing his description of causes, types of pain, back mechanics, etc., was good for me.
2. This week I was hit with awareness - from Monday's night class with Tiffany until yesterday (and, perhaps, beyond) - the word 'awareness' kept moving into my field -- either through verbal transmission, reading, or practicing. One very powerful awareness for me came in the form of my own legs.
To explain, Cindy's theory about my lack of success in kicking up is that my hamstring muscles are tight, which means they are weak, leaving no 'kick' in my kick.. No argument with the tight part, but I had not thought of them as weak. So, since she mentioned this phenomenon, I've been doing work to strengthen and lengthen them (probably something I should have been doing for years; but, no one ever said it to me like that before).
As I participated in the Pilates class Thursday, another revelation -- weak abductor muscles!!! So, hips are weak, also. More work. The good part? I have goals, I know specifics to work on -- that always makes me a happier camper.
3. Teaching this week felt stiff, until yesterday. Not sure why -- maybe out of practice after almost two weeks away. The absence also decimates class attendance - blahhhh! Yesterday, however, I went in prepared -- my stuff, plus a few new things I adapted from the Kraftsow video. The students in class struggle with low back, hip and SI joint issues, so what I 'adapted' offered them specific things to work on. Unlike 99% of the classes I teach, I did a few of these hip strengtheners with them -- need it.
4. I attended The Practice last night at my studio. Fun and laughter were present throughout the room; plus some challenging poses offered. Let's just say, there were some glistening droplets of perspiration adorning my mat about 10 minutes into the actual practice. I am always amazed that I can work up a good 'sweat' doing what seem to be simple (and slow) things. For me, it demonstrates that I am truly working within my body - this 'glistening' represents my whole body's active participation in the poses. I don't have to move fast, never pausing, never 'thinking' (horrors) -- I just have to apply myself.
5. I'm going through my notes, looking for something to offer and I keep seeing these phrases:
- Keep it simple.
- Go back to the basics.
- See the beauty first.
- Remember the source.
- You must be strong to become flexible.
- Every student is a gift.
Finally, I saw the entry 'doing something more advanced allows us to do the more basic with more awareness'. That explains a long-standing memory - Noah in a workshop, teaching challenging poses. When through with a series, he asked for questions - one was asked (not by me): "why did you sequence with the less challenging pose following the more difficult one". There's the answer -- doing something more advanced allowed us to step back and do the less challenging pose with more integrity, more awareness. Gotta love it. (I also think it is a good thing to end on a successful note - so, I credit Noah with that same thought process -- offering workshop attendees a chance to end the series feeling good about the effort expended.)
Have a nice Saturday and weekend,
PONDERING WHAT TO WRITE . . .
Ever have a day (or morning) when there are thoughts percolating so rapidly that it's difficult to focus. That would describe me right now. I think of something to write about, then forget or get distracted, come back to it - only to be distracted again.
I just received a Facebook message from a friend who is on an incredible journey -- loaded her car with baggage and cat, and headed out on a road trip. She's at her destination with only one minor glitch - the cat got sick for a couple days, postponing travel as the cat recovered. Fortunately, the cat chose to get sick where the scenery is beautiful, there is a great yoga studio and a wonderful ayurvedic specialist (and a good vet); so their time spent as cat recovered was not wasted.
Why tell you all this? This friend spent several months incapacitated with an illness recently. So ill, that her regular yoga practice was interrupted -- much to her dismay. At that time, she asked me for thoughts on how to deal with this turn of events.
Upon reflection, I remembered a similar situation (different friend), who - due to an injury - was bedridden for several months. JF's advice to this person was "do your practice; do your practice in your mind".
I shared JF's advice with the traveling friend. She has since told me that the advice was helpful. She's back to her regular physical practice, and though she worried she would be 'rusty' at it - she wasn't; she credits the 'mental movement' for carrying her through the physically inactive phase of her life.
As I sit here, I just tried it -- moving through a sun salutation in my mind. Interesting how the breath immediately sync'd up with the 'mental movement'. I became more relaxed, my breath deepened.
And, I'm sharing this with you because I think - especially with 3 examples (my 2 friends and myself) - that it can be a healing tool. Not just to carry us through times when we worry our practice may get 'rusty', but also as a means to calm a mind that may be confined in a less-than-mobile situation. A means for even the mobile to get their yoga in, if only in their mind.
So, try it -- I think I may incorporate some 'mental movement' into my days when long waits or stressful situations are involved (DMV, dental or doctor appointments - like that).
Today the schedule looks like:
House & studio work (paperwork / cleaning) in the a.m.
Pilates with Cindy
Teaching YogaHour at 4 pm
Hope your Thursday is a good one,
I just received a Facebook message from a friend who is on an incredible journey -- loaded her car with baggage and cat, and headed out on a road trip. She's at her destination with only one minor glitch - the cat got sick for a couple days, postponing travel as the cat recovered. Fortunately, the cat chose to get sick where the scenery is beautiful, there is a great yoga studio and a wonderful ayurvedic specialist (and a good vet); so their time spent as cat recovered was not wasted.
Why tell you all this? This friend spent several months incapacitated with an illness recently. So ill, that her regular yoga practice was interrupted -- much to her dismay. At that time, she asked me for thoughts on how to deal with this turn of events.
Upon reflection, I remembered a similar situation (different friend), who - due to an injury - was bedridden for several months. JF's advice to this person was "do your practice; do your practice in your mind".
I shared JF's advice with the traveling friend. She has since told me that the advice was helpful. She's back to her regular physical practice, and though she worried she would be 'rusty' at it - she wasn't; she credits the 'mental movement' for carrying her through the physically inactive phase of her life.
As I sit here, I just tried it -- moving through a sun salutation in my mind. Interesting how the breath immediately sync'd up with the 'mental movement'. I became more relaxed, my breath deepened.
And, I'm sharing this with you because I think - especially with 3 examples (my 2 friends and myself) - that it can be a healing tool. Not just to carry us through times when we worry our practice may get 'rusty', but also as a means to calm a mind that may be confined in a less-than-mobile situation. A means for even the mobile to get their yoga in, if only in their mind.
So, try it -- I think I may incorporate some 'mental movement' into my days when long waits or stressful situations are involved (DMV, dental or doctor appointments - like that).
Today the schedule looks like:
House & studio work (paperwork / cleaning) in the a.m.
Pilates with Cindy
Teaching YogaHour at 4 pm
Hope your Thursday is a good one,
EAGLE VISION
Looked at yesterday's list of activities; accomplished all.
In her class last night, Tiffany gave me a good reminder that ideas for themes do not have to take tons of effort to create -- that I can look around me and find a theme. Hers was related to sighting an eagle on a recent hike. The whole class wove itself in and through an image of ourselves as beautiful, soaring eagles. Of course, our shoulder blades got a good amount of emphasis; but, there was this subtler message - that of focusing closely, yet seeing the big picture -- at the same time.
Interesting that, when I am with a teacher I know and trust, I don't dissect the class. I'm not looking for themes, heart qualities, philosophic connection, apex, sequencing -- I simply let myself enjoy. (Well, I am paying attention to the languaging - hers is so good and it's important for me to absorb some of that.) Once again, I left feeling better - isn't that the way it's supposed to be? Yes!
Back to teaching my own classes today. For whatever reason, August has begun with substantial attendance numbers in most of the classes we offer. Perhaps people are winding down from Summer - who knows; we'll just enjoy the upturn. The instructors who teach at the studio are stepping up with great energy, new ideas and lots of support for one another. I'm having a bit of trouble keeping up with it all; but I'll manage and I'll enjoy it.
JF is in town (Park City, actually) in two weeks = fun, fun, fun! Kicking everything up a notch in preparation. I'll be attending his Immersion 3 and the weekend workshop. If Immersion 3 is anything like Immersion 1, I'd better be ready for lots of asana and tons of discussion/note taking/etc.
Lynn Lakusiak is Certified! Love it! Congratulations!
Tuesday's Activities:
Level 1 at 10 am (I'm teaching)
Paperwork, cleaning, blankets(?) - blankets in the summer at the laundromat = NO fun;
gotta do it sometime, tho
YogaHour at 4 pm (I'm teaching)
Have a good Tuesday,
In her class last night, Tiffany gave me a good reminder that ideas for themes do not have to take tons of effort to create -- that I can look around me and find a theme. Hers was related to sighting an eagle on a recent hike. The whole class wove itself in and through an image of ourselves as beautiful, soaring eagles. Of course, our shoulder blades got a good amount of emphasis; but, there was this subtler message - that of focusing closely, yet seeing the big picture -- at the same time.
Interesting that, when I am with a teacher I know and trust, I don't dissect the class. I'm not looking for themes, heart qualities, philosophic connection, apex, sequencing -- I simply let myself enjoy. (Well, I am paying attention to the languaging - hers is so good and it's important for me to absorb some of that.) Once again, I left feeling better - isn't that the way it's supposed to be? Yes!
Back to teaching my own classes today. For whatever reason, August has begun with substantial attendance numbers in most of the classes we offer. Perhaps people are winding down from Summer - who knows; we'll just enjoy the upturn. The instructors who teach at the studio are stepping up with great energy, new ideas and lots of support for one another. I'm having a bit of trouble keeping up with it all; but I'll manage and I'll enjoy it.
JF is in town (Park City, actually) in two weeks = fun, fun, fun! Kicking everything up a notch in preparation. I'll be attending his Immersion 3 and the weekend workshop. If Immersion 3 is anything like Immersion 1, I'd better be ready for lots of asana and tons of discussion/note taking/etc.
Lynn Lakusiak is Certified! Love it! Congratulations!
Tuesday's Activities:
Level 1 at 10 am (I'm teaching)
Paperwork, cleaning, blankets(?) - blankets in the summer at the laundromat = NO fun;
gotta do it sometime, tho
YogaHour at 4 pm (I'm teaching)
Have a good Tuesday,
ACTIVITIES
Home for a full day on Sunday; how strange was that? Actually, it was nice not to have to think about packing for another trip.
We did have plans to drive to Park City for the annual Arts Festival. Hopped in the car early, drove up for breakfast at a local eatery, then checked out each booth at the Festival. We were there early enough that crowds were not an issue - at least, not until 11 am or so.
As we walked the booths, I was amazed by the number of people I saw who I have met teaching yoga. Even more surprising? That I remembered many names, and was able to easily say "Hello, ____"; perhaps chat for a minute, then move on. Love that (being able to remember names).
Since I finished my Certification written exam, there has been a pile of books and papers residing on the dining room table. I dust around it and it is a neat pile, but a pile nevertheless. I just finished perusing exactly what is in that pile (note, in the months since I completed the exam, this pile has been added to as yoga materials arrived in the house). Contents:
We did have plans to drive to Park City for the annual Arts Festival. Hopped in the car early, drove up for breakfast at a local eatery, then checked out each booth at the Festival. We were there early enough that crowds were not an issue - at least, not until 11 am or so.
As we walked the booths, I was amazed by the number of people I saw who I have met teaching yoga. Even more surprising? That I remembered many names, and was able to easily say "Hello, ____"; perhaps chat for a minute, then move on. Love that (being able to remember names).
Since I finished my Certification written exam, there has been a pile of books and papers residing on the dining room table. I dust around it and it is a neat pile, but a pile nevertheless. I just finished perusing exactly what is in that pile (note, in the months since I completed the exam, this pile has been added to as yoga materials arrived in the house). Contents:
- Many printouts of Yoga Journal articles; in particular, I enjoy Julie Gudmested's writing. FYI, Julie is a yoga teacher and physical therapist -- a lot of knowledge and insight to be gained from her articles. Also found some of Sally Kempton's offerings. All of these I need to organize, perhaps re-read in some cases -- especially as their topics relate to many students arriving in my classes (knees, sciatic issues, scoliosis, etc.).
- Lesson plans. I type my lesson plans - especially since completing Christina's on-line mentoring program. Remember, too, that when a video is submitted, it must be accompanied by the plan for the class -- I guess so they can see if/how I followed it or, if I deviated is the reason visible on the video(?), etc. Note to self -- in the future, date the plans (so much easier to file). It also would be helpful to grade it after using it -- something like A+++ or C or 'train-wreck' -- like that.
- Books. Some read, some not, some I need to read. I maintain a library at the studio that is available for instructors and students to use (they can check out a book for up to 2 weeks -- so far, I haven't lost too many books to forgetfulness). I also have a small library of my favorite and 'required' reading books at home. Need to decide where these 'dining room table residers' will go.
- Miscellaneous notes. From workshops, trainings, etc. Typed yet? Can't tell - need to spend some time studying these.
Some work to do, but at least now I know what work; before it was just a 'pile' to be dusted around.
Today's Activities:
- Continue organizing/cleaning at home,
- An airport run - not for me, tho,
- Visit the studio - paperwork and do some cleaning there, also,
- Work on hamstrings (mine), and
- Tiffany's class, 5:30 pm.
Have a good Monday,
OR, WE COULD THINK 'COMMIT'
Yesterday, I tried to start a post and was interrupted unexpectedly with the call to board the plane. That was a good thing, but not good for finalizing a thought process.
The poem I was working with offers a number of avenues to go with for heart quality, theme, etc. As I re-read it this morning (see yesterday's post), I thought 'commit'. For me, there was choice, and then commitment involved in my beginning and continuing the practice. My story, now apply it to the students in the room, now apply it to the 'why does it matter'?
A couple years ago, I was re-reading the Master Immersion booklet from Park City, 2007. I stumbled upon (or read - finally) the section called "Mastering the Efficacy of the Practice". This gave me a bullet-point list of qualities or indications that we are moving on the path to awakening. Why does finding this matter? Because, for me, it is always a challenge to link my story, my theme, my heart quality to the philosophical without having it sound 'scripted'. This list offers me a point of departure to linking my story to a philosophic reason for it's telling. I revised the wording of the list from JF's, so that I can insert a heart quality and choose one of the points of progress. It begins like this:
The poem I was working with offers a number of avenues to go with for heart quality, theme, etc. As I re-read it this morning (see yesterday's post), I thought 'commit'. For me, there was choice, and then commitment involved in my beginning and continuing the practice. My story, now apply it to the students in the room, now apply it to the 'why does it matter'?
A couple years ago, I was re-reading the Master Immersion booklet from Park City, 2007. I stumbled upon (or read - finally) the section called "Mastering the Efficacy of the Practice". This gave me a bullet-point list of qualities or indications that we are moving on the path to awakening. Why does finding this matter? Because, for me, it is always a challenge to link my story, my theme, my heart quality to the philosophical without having it sound 'scripted'. This list offers me a point of departure to linking my story to a philosophic reason for it's telling. I revised the wording of the list from JF's, so that I can insert a heart quality and choose one of the points of progress. It begins like this:
When I commit, I say yes
- to my inner strength and steadfastness – I have an abiding sense and knowing of my spiritual essence
- and I trust in the Divine’s play, that my choice and my commitment are supremely good.
- and I trust the wisdom of this commitment, to the interconnection of life – I know that my decision and my commitment is valid.
There were about 10 points in JF's writing -- as I think of something myself, I add it to the list. This is just an example of the 'keys' I have created for myself so that if I'm a bit 'stumped' about the 'why does it matter', I can refer to the list and perhaps find a starting point from which to continue developing the class.
Once that's done, it's on to 'choosing' an apex or a sequence (sequencing from the individual or the universal). Lately, I've enjoyed choosing a pose to work towards (individual), and backing out of the apex - selecting a sequence to address the chosen apex pose (areas that need to be opened PLUS areas where I see things go awry).
Continuing to remind people why they're in class is great motivation, a good reason to have the philosophic connection strongly in my head. Say I have chosen #1 above, I could use instructions like "use your inner strength to stabilize . . . " or "with knowing, extend your arms . . .". Like that.
To close, I also must remind people why all this matters -- I could go back to a line in the poem and read it, or simply reflect on the strength or knowledge they may have discovered during the class.
This is all pretty simple, but if it offers an idea - a good thing. It helps me, also, to write and remember.
Have a nice Sunday,
QUOTES & POEMS
I am waiting for my plane at John Wayne Airport (just 50 minutes drive from my son's home in Carlsbad; not much different than flying into San Diego). Didn't think there would be time to post, but I have a few minutes before my plane arrives, is cleaned, and we board -- so, here goes.
Moving around my computer and I came to a quote. That led me to review my document "quotes", in which I keep quotes (obviously) and short poems that speak to me. I came to this one and upon re-reading it, could find so much correlation to my life since beginning a dedicated yoga practice 13 years ago. Here it is:
Before the fixative or heat of kiln.
Enough - they just called the flight.
I hope you all have a great day! I'm on my way home.
Moving around my computer and I came to a quote. That led me to review my document "quotes", in which I keep quotes (obviously) and short poems that speak to me. I came to this one and upon re-reading it, could find so much correlation to my life since beginning a dedicated yoga practice 13 years ago. Here it is:
The Decision
There is a moment before a shape
hardens, a color sets.There is a moment before a shape
Before the fixative or heat of kiln.
The letter might still be taken
from the mailbox.
The hand held back by the elbow,
the word kept between the larynx pulse
and the amplifying drum-skin of the room's air.
The thorax of an ant is not as narrow.
The green coat on old copper weighs more.
Yet something slips through it--
looks around,
sets out in the new direction, for other lands.
Not into exile, not into hope. Simply changed.
As a sandy track-rut changes when called a Silk Road:
it cannot be after turned back from.
~Jane Hirshfield
If you read my post a week or so ago, where I relayed my history since beginning yoga, you will be able to understand why this poem spoke to me; and why I saved it.
Poems and quotes are great theme sources. From this poem, I can speak of my experience (my story); I can probably relate it to others; I will dig to find the philosophic connection -- the 'why does it matter' that Sundari always asks me about. This poem will offer me a segue to the story of Hanuman, remembering the powers that the Sages caused him to forget as a youngster. This story applies to so many people, myself included. Who knew I could ever balance on my hands, or stand on my head -- power remembered.
Enough - they just called the flight.
I hope you all have a great day! I'm on my way home.
IF IT'S FRIDAY, IT'S A 'NOTES' DAY
An old title, but my brain is a bit frazzled from this new activity (taking care of multiple grandchildren), so - we'll go with it.
1. The priority this week - help son and family
transition from a family of four to five, as Carson arrived home (unexpectedly) from his NICU stay of 9 days. Here are some pics of all the boys:
2. I've enjoyed the pictures from Wanderlust -- looks like a great time. And, the fact that JF showed for the festivities made it all the more special for attendees, I'm sure. I especially loved the pictures of Sianna teaching. I don't know her well (have only done one day of a workshop with her and practiced next to her one other time); but I sense she is a person who, even in a photograph, personifies grace in action.
3. In the nick of time, Abby Tucker posts some tips for handstand. The hiccup -- I have to get one of those trampoline things people jog on. Desiree loves hers, so maybe it will serve other purposes than helping me kick up. Nice video on Facebook of Abby - check it out.
And, if I'm ever on a transatlantic flight, Tara Judelle, gives some tips on Facebook for handstand in the restroom (paper towels under the hands). Interesting how many people commented on the sanitary aspect of this experience.
4. Three ways of saying things comes in handy in more than just teaching yoga, I've discovered. This week with Grandsons is teaching me lots of ways to re-phrase, look for the good, watch my reactions, breathe, stay calm, stay focused, etc., etc., etc.
5. Because I have done a number of privates lately -- either intentionally or not (meaning just one person comes to a class) -- my observation skills are improving. I went back to my notes from JF Advanced Therapeutics, Santa Fe 2007, and found this entry "use minimum amount of energy to make a shift". I remember how much I doubted that entry; but see, now, that it works. Sometimes an action as simple as sync-ing with the breath helps with assists and movement (I've also noticed this when partnering -- how much further I can go once I work in sync with my partner's breath).
I continued reading and came to "don't think too much, just feel". Well, 3 years ago I probably was thinking 'I'll never get this; how can I feel someone's energy?'. Today, I believe it's different. I think, but I don't over-think; if that makes sense.
One of my great challenges has been to watch, rather than talk and move/adjust all the time (this applies to the class setting, as well). Empty spaces are uncomfortable (to me), but offer great learning opportunities. Time to observe, time to watch movement evolve, time to think.
Something to think about.
Enjoy Friday and Saturday,
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| Brady, Age almost-2 |
transition from a family of four to five, as Carson arrived home (unexpectedly) from his NICU stay of 9 days. Here are some pics of all the boys:
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| Jack, age almost-4 |
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| And, Carson - age 2 weeks |
2. I've enjoyed the pictures from Wanderlust -- looks like a great time. And, the fact that JF showed for the festivities made it all the more special for attendees, I'm sure. I especially loved the pictures of Sianna teaching. I don't know her well (have only done one day of a workshop with her and practiced next to her one other time); but I sense she is a person who, even in a photograph, personifies grace in action.
3. In the nick of time, Abby Tucker posts some tips for handstand. The hiccup -- I have to get one of those trampoline things people jog on. Desiree loves hers, so maybe it will serve other purposes than helping me kick up. Nice video on Facebook of Abby - check it out.
And, if I'm ever on a transatlantic flight, Tara Judelle, gives some tips on Facebook for handstand in the restroom (paper towels under the hands). Interesting how many people commented on the sanitary aspect of this experience.
4. Three ways of saying things comes in handy in more than just teaching yoga, I've discovered. This week with Grandsons is teaching me lots of ways to re-phrase, look for the good, watch my reactions, breathe, stay calm, stay focused, etc., etc., etc.
5. Because I have done a number of privates lately -- either intentionally or not (meaning just one person comes to a class) -- my observation skills are improving. I went back to my notes from JF Advanced Therapeutics, Santa Fe 2007, and found this entry "use minimum amount of energy to make a shift". I remember how much I doubted that entry; but see, now, that it works. Sometimes an action as simple as sync-ing with the breath helps with assists and movement (I've also noticed this when partnering -- how much further I can go once I work in sync with my partner's breath).
I continued reading and came to "don't think too much, just feel". Well, 3 years ago I probably was thinking 'I'll never get this; how can I feel someone's energy?'. Today, I believe it's different. I think, but I don't over-think; if that makes sense.
One of my great challenges has been to watch, rather than talk and move/adjust all the time (this applies to the class setting, as well). Empty spaces are uncomfortable (to me), but offer great learning opportunities. Time to observe, time to watch movement evolve, time to think.
Something to think about.
Enjoy Friday and Saturday,
CARSON (aka Champ) IS HOME
My newest grandson, Carson, arrived home from the hospital last night. I am with the family, trying to be helpful; so, feel very blessed to be here when he gets to experience his parents and brothers in this environment for the first time. Everyone getting to know one another.
For having a rocky start - he has earned the nickname 'Champ'. And, I'll call him the "calm champ". Very laid back, sleeps through all the noise and activity his family members can produce, and - even when awake - just seems to be taking it all in; equanimity in action.
As for me? Well, I miss my teaching - this is the second week I've been gone (all for good reason, but I still miss it). And, I'm re-learning the skills needed to navigate through the day with a 4-year-old and a 2-year-old. Keeping me on my toes.
Yesterday's challenge - take Jack and Brady to their swim lessons (by myself). Doesn't sound too involved; but, managing car seats, walking through parking lots with the two of them (and swimming paraphernalia), changing out of wet suits and into dry clothes -- I now have a new appreciation for Mothers of more than one (I just had one). I think I learned this a few years back when I did similar care for my two older grandsons; but, this must be a bit like childbirth -- I'd forgotten.
Another impact of this - my blog writing is suffering. Not much time in the a.m. before boys are up, and then there is no time. Writing this late, after boys are in bed and things have settled down.
So, back to SLC on Saturday, and back to routine on Monday.
For having a rocky start - he has earned the nickname 'Champ'. And, I'll call him the "calm champ". Very laid back, sleeps through all the noise and activity his family members can produce, and - even when awake - just seems to be taking it all in; equanimity in action.
As for me? Well, I miss my teaching - this is the second week I've been gone (all for good reason, but I still miss it). And, I'm re-learning the skills needed to navigate through the day with a 4-year-old and a 2-year-old. Keeping me on my toes.
Yesterday's challenge - take Jack and Brady to their swim lessons (by myself). Doesn't sound too involved; but, managing car seats, walking through parking lots with the two of them (and swimming paraphernalia), changing out of wet suits and into dry clothes -- I now have a new appreciation for Mothers of more than one (I just had one). I think I learned this a few years back when I did similar care for my two older grandsons; but, this must be a bit like childbirth -- I'd forgotten.
Another impact of this - my blog writing is suffering. Not much time in the a.m. before boys are up, and then there is no time. Writing this late, after boys are in bed and things have settled down.
So, back to SLC on Saturday, and back to routine on Monday.
FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK
I am one who has a small number of friends on Facebook (especially when compared with some). Why? Well, I have this understanding of the word 'friend' (def: A person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection.), and that understanding (and my Facebook activities) follows the definition.
I probably will hesitate to ask 'so and so' to be my friend, if I have never met them, or if we do not have a connection of some sort - just goes against something in my head. I will, however, extend my hand or accept 'friendship' requests from people I don't know, if I'd like to get to know a person, or their work, better -- i.e. Elena Brower. I don't know Elena, but I know of her, I respect and admire her work as an Anusara® Yoga instructor, and there is much I can learn from having a connection (i.e. Facebook 'friend' or 'fan').
I'm not 'dis-sing' the networking aspect of Facebook -- that's good. It's just that, for me, getting past the 'friend' label is a toughie. Maybe I'd be better at accumulating a good number of 'friends' if, instead, they were called 'connections' or 'contacts' or 'links'.
Just a thought.
That leads to what I noticed this morning. I'm following my routine - read my blogs, read my Facebook page, post my own blog entry. Yoga, yoga, yoga, yoga -- 95% of the entries are about yoga. Yoga quotes, yoga friends finding new friends, yoga updates on Wanderlust, yoga postings on who is attending what workshop, etc., etc., etc. Then, snap back to my former reality - an entry by a friend from the past (high school, no less!) who is having trouble finding huckleberries this year; had to buy them.
This leads to some serious gear shifting. Reading along, yoga, yoga, yoga; whoa, brake and shift onto a totally different subject. Just an observation. It's early.
I am home - wonderful to be home. Arrived about noon yesterday, Howard picked me up and took me to lunch, then home to unpack, do some laundry, get a bit organized, sit for a few minutes. Up to teach a private, and then to a dinner at a student's home.
My private was the same student I wrote about earlier in the week - the whiplash. Student returned and we continued to work with the shoulder blades (and, a comment was made that awareness has shifted - a good thing). We also did some of the work I experienced in Karen's class earlier in the week (thank you, Karen). Good thing.
Dinner was great -- so nice to hang out with students. We all get to see another side of one another -- plus see how we look in non-yoga clothes. It was fun and the fact that her husband did all the work - we women were his guests, was special. Thank you.
Today? Organizing to go to help Grandson Carson's family tomorrow. Fortunately, Howard will be home, so not too much to do to get house ready -- just clean up my own stuff.
Oh, and some paperwork for the studio.
Enjoy Sunday,
I probably will hesitate to ask 'so and so' to be my friend, if I have never met them, or if we do not have a connection of some sort - just goes against something in my head. I will, however, extend my hand or accept 'friendship' requests from people I don't know, if I'd like to get to know a person, or their work, better -- i.e. Elena Brower. I don't know Elena, but I know of her, I respect and admire her work as an Anusara® Yoga instructor, and there is much I can learn from having a connection (i.e. Facebook 'friend' or 'fan').
I'm not 'dis-sing' the networking aspect of Facebook -- that's good. It's just that, for me, getting past the 'friend' label is a toughie. Maybe I'd be better at accumulating a good number of 'friends' if, instead, they were called 'connections' or 'contacts' or 'links'.
Just a thought.
That leads to what I noticed this morning. I'm following my routine - read my blogs, read my Facebook page, post my own blog entry. Yoga, yoga, yoga, yoga -- 95% of the entries are about yoga. Yoga quotes, yoga friends finding new friends, yoga updates on Wanderlust, yoga postings on who is attending what workshop, etc., etc., etc. Then, snap back to my former reality - an entry by a friend from the past (high school, no less!) who is having trouble finding huckleberries this year; had to buy them.
This leads to some serious gear shifting. Reading along, yoga, yoga, yoga; whoa, brake and shift onto a totally different subject. Just an observation. It's early.
I am home - wonderful to be home. Arrived about noon yesterday, Howard picked me up and took me to lunch, then home to unpack, do some laundry, get a bit organized, sit for a few minutes. Up to teach a private, and then to a dinner at a student's home.
My private was the same student I wrote about earlier in the week - the whiplash. Student returned and we continued to work with the shoulder blades (and, a comment was made that awareness has shifted - a good thing). We also did some of the work I experienced in Karen's class earlier in the week (thank you, Karen). Good thing.
Dinner was great -- so nice to hang out with students. We all get to see another side of one another -- plus see how we look in non-yoga clothes. It was fun and the fact that her husband did all the work - we women were his guests, was special. Thank you.
Today? Organizing to go to help Grandson Carson's family tomorrow. Fortunately, Howard will be home, so not too much to do to get house ready -- just clean up my own stuff.
Oh, and some paperwork for the studio.
Enjoy Sunday,
NOTES DAY (No matter what's going on.)
Friday; so here is a recapitulation of the week's activities and some thoughts for the future:
1. Last Friday, July 23, Carson - our newest grandson - was born. Today, a week later, he is still in the hospital; improving each day, after giving doctors, nurses, parents, grandparents, everyone, a bit of a rough introduction. While he has fought, we have been unwillingly reminded of the many babies who are sicker, in more distress, and our prayers have been offered for them, as well as Carson. We learn from even the worst situations.
2. I returned from San Diego, squared things away at home for critters and housesitters, and flew up to Spokane to visit my parents and try to figure out a better situation for them. Seeing them - Father in skilled nursing and believing he doesn't need to be there; Mother in Assisted Living, somewhat oblivious to the happenings of the world - is hard. Trying to figure out what next step will be best and extend their resources as best possible is also hard. So far, we're batting 1,000 on making questionable decisions. Learning once again.
3. I'll return to SLC for the weekend, then go back to San Diego to relieve the maternal Grandmother in helping Carson's family. Fortunately, my supportive husband will remain at home - critters will be happy about that.
4. Attended a great yoga class yesterday with Karen Sprute-Francovich. Karen just returned from a meditation/asana retreat, and her first class was this one - a Level 1-2. As I drove to Garden Street Yoga in Coeur d'Alene, I wondered whether this was wise -- lots of stress in the past week - could I hold up through handstands, backbends, or whatever she might ask me to do (considering the emotions, that is).
Her introduction included a description of the retreat and then she queried each of us in the room about what we had been experiencing. I could tell 'I'm fine' would not be the answer of choice - we were to tell the truth. Several had been dealing with physical stuff, one with exhaustion, me with stress. Karen skillfully crafted her class plan on the spot - after hearing what all of us had going on. AND, IT WAS A WONDERFUL CLASS - we moved, we opened, we carefully entered a standing pose or two, then - the final 20 minutes - were restorative. Sometimes things just feel right; this class felt right. Thank you, Karen.
5. I continue to read with interest all the responses to the Times article about Anusara® yoga. If you read my post of a couple days (My Story), you'll know my history. I have practiced other styles of yoga. Once I found Anusara®, however, the wisdom of the practice to align the body, the lightheartedness of the practice as we look for the good, and the people I've shared this experience with, all have made this style my style. Nothing I've read will change my mind or make me question anyone's motives or aspirations. John Friend has been a wonderful teacher, an approachable guide, and a good friend to me along my journey.
6. Sundari reviewed the video, and - in the midst of planning for a BIG family event, her own Therapeutics Training this Fall, teaching, etc. - took the time to send me 3 pages of single-spaced, typewritten comments. I am so blessed. I have a feeling that, once I get a video through her and move to the next step in this process; it will be a pretty darn good class. (Advice to readers, once again: choose your personal mentors wisely.)
As complimentary as she was (because she is looking for the good first, right?), there are things which need "cleaning up". The good thing? Suggestions for alternative languaging were offered; and she didn't just say something like 'improve your demo'; she said 'improve your demo by . . . . . .'; so helpful.
7. I opened my 'notes' and came upon this entry, which relates to some of the comments Sundari made. (This is from a Level 2 Teacher Training with John, 10/09.) "Effort is fueled by meaningfulness. You have to give students something to hold onto." Then, a few lines down, "make it meaningful and they will do it or at least try". A good time to reflect on or notice my language when I teach.
Example: I'm teaching a class on courage or trust. Do I say "take your right leg back to high lunge" (boring) or could I say "use your muscle energy to hug the midline, and from the courage and trust this creates, step your right leg back for a high lunge" (better). Like that.
1. Last Friday, July 23, Carson - our newest grandson - was born. Today, a week later, he is still in the hospital; improving each day, after giving doctors, nurses, parents, grandparents, everyone, a bit of a rough introduction. While he has fought, we have been unwillingly reminded of the many babies who are sicker, in more distress, and our prayers have been offered for them, as well as Carson. We learn from even the worst situations.
2. I returned from San Diego, squared things away at home for critters and housesitters, and flew up to Spokane to visit my parents and try to figure out a better situation for them. Seeing them - Father in skilled nursing and believing he doesn't need to be there; Mother in Assisted Living, somewhat oblivious to the happenings of the world - is hard. Trying to figure out what next step will be best and extend their resources as best possible is also hard. So far, we're batting 1,000 on making questionable decisions. Learning once again.
3. I'll return to SLC for the weekend, then go back to San Diego to relieve the maternal Grandmother in helping Carson's family. Fortunately, my supportive husband will remain at home - critters will be happy about that.
4. Attended a great yoga class yesterday with Karen Sprute-Francovich. Karen just returned from a meditation/asana retreat, and her first class was this one - a Level 1-2. As I drove to Garden Street Yoga in Coeur d'Alene, I wondered whether this was wise -- lots of stress in the past week - could I hold up through handstands, backbends, or whatever she might ask me to do (considering the emotions, that is).
Her introduction included a description of the retreat and then she queried each of us in the room about what we had been experiencing. I could tell 'I'm fine' would not be the answer of choice - we were to tell the truth. Several had been dealing with physical stuff, one with exhaustion, me with stress. Karen skillfully crafted her class plan on the spot - after hearing what all of us had going on. AND, IT WAS A WONDERFUL CLASS - we moved, we opened, we carefully entered a standing pose or two, then - the final 20 minutes - were restorative. Sometimes things just feel right; this class felt right. Thank you, Karen.
5. I continue to read with interest all the responses to the Times article about Anusara® yoga. If you read my post of a couple days (My Story), you'll know my history. I have practiced other styles of yoga. Once I found Anusara®, however, the wisdom of the practice to align the body, the lightheartedness of the practice as we look for the good, and the people I've shared this experience with, all have made this style my style. Nothing I've read will change my mind or make me question anyone's motives or aspirations. John Friend has been a wonderful teacher, an approachable guide, and a good friend to me along my journey.
6. Sundari reviewed the video, and - in the midst of planning for a BIG family event, her own Therapeutics Training this Fall, teaching, etc. - took the time to send me 3 pages of single-spaced, typewritten comments. I am so blessed. I have a feeling that, once I get a video through her and move to the next step in this process; it will be a pretty darn good class. (Advice to readers, once again: choose your personal mentors wisely.)
As complimentary as she was (because she is looking for the good first, right?), there are things which need "cleaning up". The good thing? Suggestions for alternative languaging were offered; and she didn't just say something like 'improve your demo'; she said 'improve your demo by . . . . . .'; so helpful.
7. I opened my 'notes' and came upon this entry, which relates to some of the comments Sundari made. (This is from a Level 2 Teacher Training with John, 10/09.) "Effort is fueled by meaningfulness. You have to give students something to hold onto." Then, a few lines down, "make it meaningful and they will do it or at least try". A good time to reflect on or notice my language when I teach.
Example: I'm teaching a class on courage or trust. Do I say "take your right leg back to high lunge" (boring) or could I say "use your muscle energy to hug the midline, and from the courage and trust this creates, step your right leg back for a high lunge" (better). Like that.
Enjoy your 'notes day', aka Friday,
UPDATE, Etc. . . .
My newest Grandson, Carson, is having better days. Weaning off the ventilator, being held and getting diapers changed by his Mother. (When, in our previously uncomplicated lives, would she ever have enjoyed changing a diaper so much!?!?) It's a better time; there may still be issues to deal with; but, better.
I returned to SLC on Monday, squared away the critters for the housesitter, and took a flight up to deal with parental issues. I receive my updates on Carson and family via phone (and, now a blog started by the parents). If things weren't going so well, that would be difficult; but, we do what we have to do. And, things are going well.
Thank you, all, for your positive thoughts and prayers for this little one.
Then, I've been reading with interest reaction to the Times article regarding Anusara® Yoga and John Friend, first was the response from instructors of Anusara® Yoga, and - most recently - John's personal response. In all of these, the intention has been to acknowledge the article was mostly accurate; and, then, to point out inaccuracies with explanation. (to read John's response, go to Anusara.com, click on community, go to 'John's blog' (the original article is also linked there).
I know when I read the article, I was a bit put off by the author and wondered about her intentions. I read similar comments and felt justified. Then, I read BJ Galvan's blog and was able to put my reaction more in perspective. Still, tho, I sense an unsettledness in the community as a result; and I know that when I'm unsettled I can fall victim to saying unwarranted or unhealthy comments.
A good reminder this morning came from Olga's blog (www.aligningwithgrace.blogspot.com), in which she talks about the '4 Gates of Speech' when considering the words we use.
In my year of trying to speak more clearly, I refer to these 'gates' frequently - and, I find there are many times that I'd love to say something that doesn't meet the criteria to pass the gate. It would make for much more interesting conversation, if I could get it through the gate.
Another 'gate' I've been introduced to is "Is it my story?".
What does 'is it my story?' mean to me? That my right to relay the story is limited. I cannot relay it with accuracy, because I'm not one of the characters. I also don't have permission to relay another person's story.
Besides, I have enough on my plate. When I begin to communicate other persons' issues ('stories'), then I often times will assume the associated worry or angst. I don't need that. Right now, there are enough stories that involve me, and taking on someone else's only increases the 'story' burden I'm carrying.
So, Gate #5: "Is it my story?"
Going to do some yoga today in Coeur d'alene. Need it.
Have a good Thursday,
I returned to SLC on Monday, squared away the critters for the housesitter, and took a flight up to deal with parental issues. I receive my updates on Carson and family via phone (and, now a blog started by the parents). If things weren't going so well, that would be difficult; but, we do what we have to do. And, things are going well.
Thank you, all, for your positive thoughts and prayers for this little one.
Then, I've been reading with interest reaction to the Times article regarding Anusara® Yoga and John Friend, first was the response from instructors of Anusara® Yoga, and - most recently - John's personal response. In all of these, the intention has been to acknowledge the article was mostly accurate; and, then, to point out inaccuracies with explanation. (to read John's response, go to Anusara.com, click on community, go to 'John's blog' (the original article is also linked there).
I know when I read the article, I was a bit put off by the author and wondered about her intentions. I read similar comments and felt justified. Then, I read BJ Galvan's blog and was able to put my reaction more in perspective. Still, tho, I sense an unsettledness in the community as a result; and I know that when I'm unsettled I can fall victim to saying unwarranted or unhealthy comments.
A good reminder this morning came from Olga's blog (www.aligningwithgrace.blogspot.com), in which she talks about the '4 Gates of Speech' when considering the words we use.
Are they true?
Are they necessary?
Are they beneficial?
Are they kind?
In my year of trying to speak more clearly, I refer to these 'gates' frequently - and, I find there are many times that I'd love to say something that doesn't meet the criteria to pass the gate. It would make for much more interesting conversation, if I could get it through the gate.
Another 'gate' I've been introduced to is "Is it my story?".
What does 'is it my story?' mean to me? That my right to relay the story is limited. I cannot relay it with accuracy, because I'm not one of the characters. I also don't have permission to relay another person's story.
Besides, I have enough on my plate. When I begin to communicate other persons' issues ('stories'), then I often times will assume the associated worry or angst. I don't need that. Right now, there are enough stories that involve me, and taking on someone else's only increases the 'story' burden I'm carrying.
So, Gate #5: "Is it my story?"
Going to do some yoga today in Coeur d'alene. Need it.
Have a good Thursday,
MY STORY
Many of you reading this blog know little about me, except that I write a blog and that I am an Anusara-Inspired™ yoga instructor. I read Christina's blog this morning, in which she encouraged us to tell our stories. Her words on Anusara®: "I think each one of us is its integrity. I think that each one of us is its majesty. And in my heart I know that each one of us is its future. The stories we tell today about yesterday will shape our present."
My story (so far) goes like this:
John Friend once described me as one of the “slow movers” of Anusara® (my words for his description of me). I was not offended; conversely, I took it as a compliment -- because I saw watchfulness in these words. He continued to explain to the group that I began very slowly to step into Anusara®, and I had steadily continued my studies until I became a very regular and loyal student of his and the practice.
Step back to 1997, at age 48, when I decided to try yoga. My husband and I had relocated; my decision not to go back to work left me with loneliness as a frequent companion, and depression visiting frequently.
He (my husband) suggested yoga; so, I found a studio and took a class. I returned a week later to take another. Then, stopped. Six months later - an even more desperate person (me) returned to try again. In this class, a different instructor talked about ‘grace’, and her blooming studies in this newer system of hatha yoga. Golf, running, working out, and skiing had taken their toll, leaving me with tight hips, a rounding back, and sore knees. Never had ‘grace’ and my name been included in the same sentence. I was intrigued -- even though today I know the ‘grace’ of which she spoke meant so much more than just physical grace.
This was my first exposure to Anusara® Yoga.
As I continued to practice Anusara®, I was told it would be next to impossible to study with John Friend, based on his growing popularity. Now, I am not the ‘step-out-of-your-comfort-zone’ type of person, but this challenged me.
I applied to one of the final retreat weeks at Inner Harmony. I called after a few weeks to check on the status of my application and was told the week I’d applied for was full, but there was space in the week prior. I accepted the spot -- I was in -- for what, I had not a clue.
Inner Harmony, at that time, was a wonderful retreat center outside of Cedar City, UT, with space for 60+ workshop attendees, some in shared rooms, some in dormitories, some in yurts and tents.
On a Sunday in September 2004, I climbed in my car, by myself, and drove approximately 200 miles south of Salt Lake City to Inner Harmony. Of the 60 people attending this session, I was one of four who had never met John before; and, for me, it was the first time I had ever done anything like this.
Three days into the retreat a family emergency called me back to Salt Lake City. In the following months, cards and e-mails arrived from many present at Inner Harmony that week, expressing their regret that circumstances required me to leave.
John’s impression on me was great; the kula’s impression on me was over-the-top. I applied for the next workshop with him in Tucson (perfect, since my mother-in-law lived there). At that workshop, two things happened that began to solidify this partnership:
First, from across a room of 200 people, he called out my name to remind me it was left leg forward in pidgeon, not right. Imagine my shock -- one, that he would remember me after those few Inner Harmony days, and, two, that from across the room he could see I was off on the legs!
The second happened as I talked to him at the end of class. I waited my turn, I thanked him and told him of the outpouring of support I had received - to me it spoke volumes about his work to create a community as part of our Anusara® practice. Then - a mind-searing occurrence. Someone came up to talk, interrupting us. He turned to that person, politely asked her to wait, and turned back to me to finish our short conversation. Wow! Someone who teaches yoga so well AND listens attentively.
The label of “slow mover” fits, as it did take me a while to really get into Anusara®. Not sure why; perhaps because there was a lot to unravel so I could begin this new venture in my life.
And starting ‘slow’, I believe, contributes to my sticking with it. Too often, I have rushed in, excited and eager, taking on too much too quickly. Only to find interest fizzles. By starting ‘slow’, I received little delicious tastes that kept enticing me to look for more, to do more.
Today, I am an Anusara-Inspired™ yoga Instructor, and have been accepted onto the Certification path. Just like many of our yoga poses -- this experience keeps getting more challenging and more fulfilling.
Today, I am an Anusara-Inspired™ yoga Instructor, and have been accepted onto the Certification path. Just like many of our yoga poses -- this experience keeps getting more challenging and more fulfilling.
Much of my life is not that different today -- same caring husband, same family (plus some new grandchildren), same house, etc. And, there’s this ‘new’ part; a part filled with many friends from our kula plus new and different memories, goals, aspirations, and yoga. I must say thank you to that ‘same caring husband’. And, that I am proud to be called a “slow mover” by John Friend.
So, that's my story (and, I'm sticking with it). As I re-read it, I am filled with gratitude - to my husband, to the fact that I did 'try' yoga, to being able to meet John Friend and the many people at that first retreat -- many of whom are now very good friends, to being part of Anusara®, 'the yoga of yes'.
Enjoy Wednesday,
So, that's my story (and, I'm sticking with it). As I re-read it, I am filled with gratitude - to my husband, to the fact that I did 'try' yoga, to being able to meet John Friend and the many people at that first retreat -- many of whom are now very good friends, to being part of Anusara®, 'the yoga of yes'.
Enjoy Wednesday,